18 November 2010

Dear blog,

I have no idea what am I doing this whole day. But what i'm doing this whole afternoon is not what i really want.

Since that day, we 've run out of topics. This time, are we really coming to an end? It's very different from all the fights we had before. This time, no one mentioned the word 'break up', but it's like a feeling. It's coming so naturally, just like how 'love' came to us. I'm scared. Because I don't want it to happen. I thinked u realised too. Since that day, we never really talk. I miss you. Very much.

I watched Valentine's Day just now. Although this movie has been released a few months ago, but I only got to watch it today. It's a love story. Usually, I love to watch love stories. I would be so into the movie when i watched it. But not today. The movie was lovely, but i just can't concentrate. I felt so lonely, and infact lost! During the movie, all I was thinking is : Why are you not texting me? Why is the movie so long? When is it going to end? Although I was thinking that all the time, but I managed to finish the movie. I refused to turn it off because I wanna spend my time, wasting it on movies. Because I don't want my other time keep thinking of you. I rather wasting it.

Lately, we have nothing much to talk. Although we called, but there's nothing to talk between us. I tried so hard to get back those feelings, but i just can't. It's different now, and I don't know why. Perhaps is my fault? Maybe I just can't forget about the past. Even in my dream, i dreamt about you. But it's negative. All of it.

Lately, I realised something. Everyone has been wearing a mask all the time, I'm the only fool all the time. When there's something happen, only I knew who's the real person all along, and who's the one behind the mask all along. I guess that's what friendship are all about. As time goes by, you'll learn what you have been through. Even friedship, love relationship, family and even studies. This year, I've learnt a lot...

Good luck to you, and all the best to whoever that reads this. Thank you.