1st February 2011

Dear blog,

we quarelled again. i felt so tired. keep on quarelling. n this is just a small matter. i feel like i cant click along wit him anymore. duno wat to say anymore. feel like letting go. flying a kite is so difficult n tiring. especially when the wind is too strong. its so tiring to chase after n hold on to it tightly. i feel like letting go, let it fly freely. bt i love the kite. i dont want to lose it. bt the wind is so strong tat im tired of holding on anymore. teach me wat to do?

i tried so many times. my heart hurts many times. the wound hasnt really recover n gt hurt again. i cant stand the pain. when sumting happens, i'll though of all the past. i cant let down wat had happen. so many had happened, lots of thgs i regreted, bt when the same things repeated, i stil cant cope it. especially wit u.

after all the things we've pass through, u stil din appreciate. yes, im blaming u for these. bcox i had enough. u nvr appreciate me. u took it for granted. im tired of giving out efforts to ppl who dont appreciate.

yes, i had happy times wit u. bt where r they nw? r they gone permenantly？y all the things u did behind me hav to reveal nw? i cant take it. i tot having a bf wil be great. it was at 1st, bt nw its distubing me. all the time. when i quarelled wit u, i cant concentrate in everyting. im just staring at the fon hoping it to ring. bt the fon always stay stil. ALWAYS. u nvr wanna approach me b4. u asked me to wait. i waited n i slept at last, cox i gt ntg.

n time. y r u oways tat bz until u hav no time for me? yes, u gave me. bt limited time. i oways got to cut short every time i have wit u. bt y u hav time for tennis? sabs? y im the one tats begging for ur time? y arent u b the one tats yerning for my time? idk wat to do!!! someone pls tel me wat to do!! pls leave a msg to tel me wat to do! PLEASE!

hey, its CNY. dun b so moody here. cheer up! happy Chinese New Year! appreciate everyting u have nw than regret later. stay healthy,happy n pretty. :)
gtg, wil update soon.