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A Whole New Life 12.1.2012

2012-01-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

It's a whole new year ahead. im already starting my college life. i was feeling quiete excited on the 1st day as i expect more. bt then its not rili wat i expect. so, as the days go on, all im feeling is more n more tiring.

I cant accept the fact that u're totally out of my life now onwards. we've been meeting each other everyday, i mean EVERYDAY for THREE years! n life suddenly changed 360 degree. u're already part of my life, my life is super difficult to go on without you. Everyday in college, im missing u more n more. n i mean it. really. looking at the couples in college, i'll recall the moments tat we used to hav too in high sch. cls without you, break without you, sch without you just isnt tat fun anymore. I used to love schooling days during high sch, especially monday, bcox we hav Chinese cls after sch, we can hav lunch together n we hav to stay back n hav longer schooling hrs, n so i can be wit you longer. i used to hope tat schooling hrs will be longer, bcox tat's the only time we hav to meet. bt then we hav the chance to be together bt we cant go out for date or anyting. bt now when we're allowed to go out, there's no more chance.

our distance is geting further n further.

18 october 2011

2011-10-18T12:51:00.002+08:00

dear blog,

today is 18 October 2011. there are only 26 days to go. im getting really nervous. i feel like i have alot more to do. n i feel like im nt going to make it.

oh well..wish me luck my bloggers.

love,
-kelly-

3rd June 2011

2011-06-03T11:08:00.002+08:00

今天，你去了新加坡。现在应该上机了吧。最近，我们一直在吵架。吵得很累，分分又合合，终于和和好了。可和好了不到两天，你又要走了。你只是去四天而已，为何我这么不开心？我也不知道。你去的四天仿佛我的四年。

昨晚，我们谈电话。很久没和你聊这么久了。可聊了，你今天就走。每人陪我说话，每人听我诉苦，每人陪我发癫。我想你。对不起，我知道我鲁莽，我刁蛮，我任性，我答应你我会改的。我要你回来后，我们可以像以前那样甜蜜。

刚刚去载了妹妹。妈妈在旁一直念。念个不停。很烦，很累。我跟她说下星期二我要和朋友出去喝茶，可朋友需要她载，结果，她又翻脸了。哎！和男生不能在一起，现在连女生都不能在一起啊！！我快崩溃了！昨晚又被爸爸念，今天还要受妈妈的气！你又不在，谁来帮我啊！！！

请你快回来！我需要你！！！

记得。。。

2011-05-26T18:23:00.002+08:00

你忘了我们曾经共有的。你忘了我们经过的风风雨雨。你只把我一个人留在记忆里。我忽然想起了我们唱过的歌。我第一次给你唱的歌。你第一次欠我的手。我们第一次拥抱，接吻，约会。以前我们总会分分合合。吵架的时候我总会说分手，可每次都随便说说而已。其实，我没有想过要跟你分手。我也想象不了分手后会是怎样的。

以前，你会偷看我的部落格，可现在，就连我有部落格都忘了。我不知该说什么，你才会彻底的清醒。我，心淡了，很累，我想闭上眼睛，永远都不想再面对你。因为，我不能没有你，也不能再忍受你了，所以，我不想面对你。。。

today...

2011-05-16T16:58:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

i had phy n chemistry paper 3 today. chemistry was tough.
i knew i missed out alot. especially wit u, u n u.
i only can say im sorry...

1st February 2011

2011-02-01T21:46:00.005+08:00

Dear blog,

we quarelled again. i felt so tired. keep on quarelling. n this is just a small matter. i feel like i cant click along wit him anymore. duno wat to say anymore. feel like letting go. flying a kite is so difficult n tiring. especially when the wind is too strong. its so tiring to chase after n hold on to it tightly. i feel like letting go, let it fly freely. bt i love the kite. i dont want to lose it. bt the wind is so strong tat im tired of holding on anymore. teach me wat to do?

i tried so many times. my heart hurts many times. the wound hasnt really recover n gt hurt again. i cant stand the pain. when sumting happens, i'll though of all the past. i cant let down wat had happen. so many had happened, lots of thgs i regreted, bt when the same things repeated, i stil cant cope it. especially wit u.

after all the things we've pass through, u stil din appreciate. yes, im blaming u for these. bcox i had enough. u nvr appreciate me. u took it for granted. im tired of giving out efforts to ppl who dont appreciate.

yes, i had happy times wit u. bt where r they nw? r they gone permenantly？y all the things u did behind me hav to reveal nw? i cant take it. i tot having a bf wil be great. it was at 1st, bt nw its distubing me. all the time. when i quarelled wit u, i cant concentrate in everyting. im just staring at the fon hoping it to ring. bt the fon always stay stil. ALWAYS. u nvr wanna approach me b4. u asked me to wait. i waited n i slept at last, cox i gt ntg.

n time. y r u oways tat bz until u hav no time for me? yes, u gave me. bt limited time. i oways got to cut short every time i have wit u. bt y u hav time for tennis? sabs? y im the one tats begging for ur time? y arent u b the one tats yerning for my time? idk wat to do!!! someone pls tel me wat to do!! pls leave a msg to tel me wat to do! PLEASE!

hey, its CNY. dun b so moody here. cheer up! happy Chinese New Year! appreciate everyting u have nw than regret later. stay healthy,happy n pretty. :)
gtg, wil update soon.

29th January 2011

2011-01-29T11:14:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

today is the 1st official day of holiday. n i have plenty of homeworks on my desk. i havent even did any one of it.

yesterday i learned sumting. DONT ever compare ur health wit ur wealth. bcox wealth cant buy health. although ppl nid money to survive to move on.. bt when health is gone, u dun even have the chance to enjoy ur wealth. DONT ever chased for wealth n forgot bout ur health. i thk all of us must:

go for medical check-up once a blue moon
take care of our balance diet
dont me too stress
exercise regurlary
be happy
appreciate everyting we have nw n be thankful
pray to God

i hope u can really consider my advices.

well, on the other hand, its bout time for CNY! i cant wait for it! but after CNY, the nightmare begins. EXAM!(non-stop) Ahh!

well, i thk i shud be going nw. for that mountain of homeworks on my table. bye.

More Chinese new year comments!

26th january 2011

2011-01-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

i din go to sch today. as i was sick. my eyes were swollen badly.
many of u asked y like tat, i told u all bcox of allergy. bt i myself noe, bcox i cried too much. bcox of u. n i thk u shud noe. we have been quarelling non-stop for the whole month. im fed up, im tired.

long time din went on fb. saw an old fren added me today. haha. old memories rewinded back.
well, i m in a rush here. so. i'll just stop here 1st. will continue soon.

loves.

31st december 2010

2010-12-31T18:35:00.000+08:00

亲爱的部落格：

不知不觉，我们都走到了尾声。说真的，我真的有点不舍。回头望一望，今年发生了好多事情。全部的事情如今都已经有了圆满的结果。有负面的，那当然也有好事。今年过去了，就不会再回来。真的，时间过得特别快。
今天，我妹妹上初一了，要到学校报到。我也陪同母亲到学校去。看到那情景，让我回想起我那时候刚踏进中学的情景。感觉上，我才刚过不久。哈哈。转眼间，我已是高中最后一年了。说实话，其实我还未能适应，有时感觉上，好像自己是新来的，新学生，学长学姐都需要迁就我们，可是现在，我们已是学长学姐了。

明年，也就是再过几个小时，我要踏入人生的其中一个转折点。我还未来得及做好心理准备，可是已经来临了。我希望在新的一年里头，我会有新的突破，新的成就。我一定要成功！我会加油！我会做好准备迎接2011！

好了，就到此为止。再见了2010！！我会想你！

29/12/2010

2010-12-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Today is already wednesday. a few days more til sch reopens. i dropped cls, while he went into sc1. idk hw to describe my feelings nw. i felt happy, but im nt actuali is. see wat i mean? i dont know hw im feeling. im happy for him bcox after all his hard work, he finally went into sc1, n his parents are also happy n proud of him. on the other hand, i was dissapointed bcox my wish doesnt came true. i always wanted us to be same cls again especially the last year, form5. haih. n sum other reasons tat i cant tell here.

today, i was so bored at home. he went out the whole day with his parents.

well,i've ntg much to say for now. will update soon. loves.

26th december 2010

2010-12-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

today, i went shopping with my grandparents. we went mid valley. my parents brought to hav lunch and wanted to do some shopping with them. i was just following. i saw quiet many clothes, but i din bought any of it. i duno y im like moodless today. been waiting for his msgs n calls.

yesterday was christmas, he went back early in the morning. he din told me he was staying there for a night. i was waiting. then oly he text me. i was so bored. my christmas was spent in my aunt's hse in the morning, and alone at home at night. my family went to my aunt's hse again at night, i din wan to folow, so i stayed alone at home. i had ntg to do, i watched tv, i online, i text him, but he din reply. tat was hw i spent my christmas. he just text me a goodnite after waiting him for LONG..thks to him, i had my "MERRY BERRY christmas"!!!

he came back d. he text me like 2 hours per msg. at night, he called me. we tok for 10 mins ni. and i thk tats hw today's gonna end. goodbye n goodnite.

christmas

2010-12-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS. TODAY IS CHRISTMAS. THIS MORNING, I MADE A FEW CARDS FOR MY RELATIVES. THEN, I WENT TO MY AUNT'S HOUSE. THERE ARE BABIES AROUND. THOUGH THERE R MANY PPL, BUT I FELT LONELY. BCOX OF U. U DIN EVEN TEXT ME. AT ALL. U WENT BACK JUST LIKE TAT, WITHOUT TELLING ME U'RE STAYING. AT NITE, EVERYONE WENT OUT EXCEPT ME. I WAS SO LONELY N BORED. I TEXT U, BUT U NEVER REPLY. THIS ISNT THE CHRISTMAS I HOPE FOR. U LEFT ME SPENDING MY OWN CHRISTMAS ALONE,LONELY IN THIS CHRISTMAS NIGHT. EVEN A GOODNIGHT TEXT ALSO U DONT BOTHERR TO GIVE. IM TIRED, I M SAD, IM LONELY, IM DISSAPOINTED. I HATE THIS CHRISTMAS.

christmas eve

2010-12-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

Dear santa,

Merry Christmas.
Santa, i want a happy christmas. i dun wan any presents, i just wan to celebrate christmas happily with my loved ones.

For me, i thk Christmas is a magical n special day, i dun wanna waste it. i noe u might tot im silly, but no, i believe in santa. Christmas is my favourite festival of the year, is so nice, so dreamy, so fantasy.. i've been waiting for this day every year. i prepared for christmas, i dream to b perfect, i dun wan anyting to go wrg.

though i wanted him to be in same cls wit me, but i stil want him to b the 1st cls. i hope he can b happy dere.

santa, i dun wan anyting else, pls make my family n him happy n safe. thank you santa.

17th december 2010

2010-12-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

its now half past 12, and i stil cant sleep. and i dont know why. He went to bed already, as he need to wake up early tomorrow for basketball and badminton with me after that.

he came to my house today. just for a while. we chat and we talked. i wasnt very happy after that. i think you should know the reason. well, at night, i wanted to talk, but i know you're not happy.

by the way, Happy Birthday Weike! Hope you have a blast! Friends forever.

14 december 2010

2010-12-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Yesterday i went club with him. we finally meet after so long. but we only manage to hang out for 1 n half hour. he was late for 20 mins. i was a little angry, but when i saw him, all the anger just dissapear. mayb its bcox i miss him too much. :) haha.

well, we hang out, we talked bout our vacation, sharing stories. the time flew very very fast, i can say super fast when we were together. we never hav enuf time together. NEVER. oh well, i gave him a small cute magnet.

today is just a boring day. it's my stupid sis'bday. i regreted i wished her. she's like a bitch! she treated me as if she's older than me. she forced ppl to buy her present. n kip on reminding her bday. her bday, so wat? wats the big deal? demand alot. she's just upsr standard n gt a mini x10. now, she want party n nitendo n laptop. =.= plus her result is just 6A's. i got straight A's for PMR UPSR, i oso never demand that much. plus i srsly hate her attitude.

ok, lets chge back to him. dun wanna mention much bout her, she's freaking annoying.

today we only talked in the phone. but for a while ni. as he n i woke up late, den i went mcD, he went tennis, his dad is at home too. tats y we only managed to tok for a while.

oh dear, i felt the warm n heat in my body. i thk im going to have fever. cox im having running nose n sore throat. hate that feeling! argh! wish he was here to take care of me. :(

well, i thk i shud just stop here. bye. love u.

i really miss you

2010-12-11T12:45:00.000+08:00

i called u today just to hear u say u were not around
when the message was through though i wanted to i couldnt make a sound
i wanna tell u the things i've seen
i wanna take u to where i've been
and i wish u were here with me
don't u know i really miss you

im writing to say i had a wonderful day hanging with my friends
but the memory dies as the sun leaves the sky im a alone again
i wanna tell u the weather is fine
as the night comes around u are on my mind
and i wish u were here with me
I really miss you.

10th december 2010

2010-12-10T16:28:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

I just came back from japan yesterday. I went Hokkaido n Tokyo. It was snowing in Hokkaido. It was so beautiful.

There's alot to say about Japan. But what i wanted to say the most is, i miss him very much throughout the whole journey. When it was snowing, i really wished he was there with me, enjoying the beautiful romantic view.

Well, i went hot spring wit my mum n sis. The hot spring there was amazing! but we went in naked. haha. Can u imagine when ur body were soaking in hot water while ur head n face are experiencing the snow! it was amazing. the hot spring was outdoor. when we were soaking in hot spring, it was really snowing. how lucky were we!

besides, wat i saw there was, the girl there. no matter old or young, they MUST make up. Thick one sumore. the tour guide told us, the man never see his own wife without make up before. well, i thk tat was true, bcox on the street, all the girls past by wore thick make-up.

and yes, japanese are frendly. their services are real good. and yes, i ate ice-cream though is cold. haha. the ice- cream there was super delicious! n super expensive too! haha.
and of cox, wat i enjoyed the most in japan is the SNOW! I love SNOW!! we had snowball fight, snow angel, snowman! oh! i just love it.

there are many more bout JAPAN, but im just too lazy to type it all.. haha..well, here are some photos of me.

And last but not least, I LOVE YOU THE MOST.

18 November 2010

2010-11-18T17:27:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

I have no idea what am I doing this whole day. But what i'm doing this whole afternoon is not what i really want.

Since that day, we 've run out of topics. This time, are we really coming to an end? It's very different from all the fights we had before. This time, no one mentioned the word 'break up', but it's like a feeling. It's coming so naturally, just like how 'love' came to us. I'm scared. Because I don't want it to happen. I thinked u realised too. Since that day, we never really talk. I miss you. Very much.

I watched Valentine's Day just now. Although this movie has been released a few months ago, but I only got to watch it today. It's a love story. Usually, I love to watch love stories. I would be so into the movie when i watched it. But not today. The movie was lovely, but i just can't concentrate. I felt so lonely, and infact lost! During the movie, all I was thinking is : Why are you not texting me? Why is the movie so long? When is it going to end? Although I was thinking that all the time, but I managed to finish the movie. I refused to turn it off because I wanna spend my time, wasting it on movies. Because I don't want my other time keep thinking of you. I rather wasting it.

Lately, we have nothing much to talk. Although we called, but there's nothing to talk between us. I tried so hard to get back those feelings, but i just can't. It's different now, and I don't know why. Perhaps is my fault? Maybe I just can't forget about the past. Even in my dream, i dreamt about you. But it's negative. All of it.

Lately, I realised something. Everyone has been wearing a mask all the time, I'm the only fool all the time. When there's something happen, only I knew who's the real person all along, and who's the one behind the mask all along. I guess that's what friendship are all about. As time goes by, you'll learn what you have been through. Even friedship, love relationship, family and even studies. This year, I've learnt a lot...

Good luck to you, and all the best to whoever that reads this. Thank you.

8/11/2010

2010-11-08T17:10:00.000+08:00

亲爱的部落格：

最近，我感到很不开心，很无助。我已经尽力去为他付出，给他最好的，可是我得到的却是我不想要的结果。是不是人家所说的那样，命中注定？命中注定我和他是不能在一起的。我很累，可是，我不想放弃，因为我爱他。我深信他有一天会被感动，我不想错过任何机会，所以我愿意忍，我愿意等。可是已经已经一年半了，难道时间还不够吗？我要等到何时？

我们连续吵了三天，难道你不累吗？不是我想吵，只是你一直在犯错。试问有哪个女人可以容忍自己的男人和别的女人又互动？试问有哪个女人能够容忍自己的男人在自己面前望着前女友？请你换个角度来看好吗？换成你是我，你会有何反应？

我也是一个普通的女孩子，我是需要人家来安慰，尊重，疼惜的。从一开始到现在，老实说，我是从没感受你这样对我。我现在只有一个问题想知道，你从以前到现在，你把我当成是什么？

1/10/2010

2010-10-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

2010年10月日雨天

我今天的心情就像今天的天气一样，很伤心，流了很多眼泪。不知从哪里说起。我很伤心。

这星期里，我们都一直在吵架，从没停止。都在吵一样的问题，他说他会改，要我给他多一次的机会，可是他到头来还是一场空，事情始终没有解决。我从来没试过这么伤心。我不知要怎么才好。
今天去补习，因为哭得眼睛红肿，流鼻涕，结果老师以为我鼻子敏感，其实我是哭成这样的。因为，我实在忍受不了。或许我和他要的东西各有不同，他要的，我不能给；我要的，他总是无法做得到，我们根本就是两世界的人，水和火永远是不能相容的。

talk to me,
speak to me,
dont sink before u rise baby,
dont fade away,
you hesitate,
you seem to wait,
for all the times we had
feels like a worlds away
who's to say
we'll b ok
we will make it through the nite
dun wanna wake up in dis state
i just wan us both to smile
cox we're the same
n i noe tat will never chge
look, i bought ur favourite ice cream
i dun wanna see it melt away
if u walk out now
i dun noe if we could be the same
baby
just talk wit me
cox i wan u to stay here wit me

XX,如果你还会看这一页，我想告诉你: 请你不要再伤害我，我玩不起了。

5 september 2010

2010-09-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

today is such a boring day. i woke up den started to watch tv, on9, tv again. tats all. i'm so lifeless. wanted to chat wit him bt he has been bz-ing for thr singing competition. yesterday, he told me he did well for being an emcee. 2day he joined the choir group which has oly 8 ppl in a group. they lost. he has been bz-ing bout this for the whole weekend, no time for me. well, i can stil und bout this weekend. i noe he's bz..bt i cant hide my feelings either. i felt so tired of waiting.

writing blog is the oly thing to pass time.

tomorrow is already monday. dun feel like going to sch or tuitions. afterall, its a HOLIDAY rite? bt y is my holiday stil filled wit SCHOOL n TUITIONS? well, i guess its meant to be. on the other side, when there's no school or tuition clses, it'll b like today. BORING!

i wanna go swimming! bt nobody's willing to acompany me. =( i wanna go out too! i wanna watch movies! i wanna shop!! n i wan a new phone! haha.. *dreaming* n i want PROM! i'm stil dreaming of a guy would actuali ask me out to prom. aww...

y m i nt asleep at this hour? oh yes. same reason. waiting for him. i'm here rottening at this late hour, while he's having his time in the mamak at this hour. haih.

well, i guess i shud just sign off nw. bye.

4 september 2010

2010-09-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

i dun noe y, bt these days i dun feel the same anymore. i just duno y. when i rili like tat thing, i wil put in my whole effort to that thing, bt when i dun like tat thing, i wont even feel like geting close to it.
mayb i wanna change my lifestlye. i wanna concentrate on wat i rili want. i dun wana waste my time anymore. i wanna catch up wat i have missed. frenship, studies, loves..
there's nt much time left to be together anymore. i hope i can rili used up the time we have to be together.

well, holidays have jst started. bt my holidays schedule r stil fully packed. =( monday morning, bio cls in sch. teacher's giving us extra cls. the teacher is very hardworking. she rili wanna teach us well. she even sacrifice her holiday to teach us for free. bt we dun appreciate her. haih. bt in the other hand, sumtimes its rili boring for a student to sit down dere for so many hours just to listen to the teacher. haha. right, after tat, eng tuition for 2 hours. den bm tuition n den chemistry. its just the 1st official day of holiday! n my schedule are so tight already. =(

n for love life, i'm happy wit him. i felt his love more n more. n i'm happy wit it. i love him too. very very much.
n we're going to perform a song during the mooncake festival in sch this coming 18 september. i hope its going to b a wonderful nite tat he n i are going to rmber for the rest of our life. =)

well, tats all for nw. nites! sweetdreams. love you.

31/08/10

2010-08-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

today is suetyen's birthday. Happy Birthday Suetyen! love you lots!! Friends Forever..

5 days of holidays had gone. 2ml is a normal schooling day. haih. idk y bt nwadays i hate schooling days.

i went bkt tinggi just nw. i saw the guy frm kwang hua. the guy tat asked for my num tat nite. i din say hi to him, as i dun rili noe him, plus i dun thk he stil rmber me.

well. tats all i wanted to say. nites. sweetdreams.

after a long time..05-08-10

2010-08-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

it had been a very long time since i last wrote my blog.

Dear blog,

2day is thursday. as usual, we had sch in the morning, den chinese cls after sch, n then physics tuition. same old day.

it was just last thursday. it was his bday. this is the 2nd time celebrating his bday 2gether. i gave him a wallet. nata helped me bought it. (thank u natasya! ) i printed a pic of us n slot it inside the ID card holder. i also made him a presentation in a dvd. its all pics. his baby pics..the pics of us. the sweet memories we had. i also called out a suprise cake for him with the help of his frens. its just a small cake bt i hope he enjoyed it. his frens were all super sporting. some of them even purposely stayed back just to celebrate wit him . ( thank u u guys..who came to celebrate wit him.)
he said he had the best bday eva. he said he was touched. i'm happy for him.

my parents went bali a few days ago. he came to my hse. tat's the longest time we've spent in this year. i miss the days already. i dk when would i gt tat chance again to spend tat much 2gether wit him..i was rili having a great time wit him.

few more days til exam. n i havent touch anyting yet. i'm sooo dead!

"i love u tats y i'm jealous. i love you tats y i cant stop worry bout u. i love you tats y i'm annoying. all i wan u to noe is tat i rili love you tats y i did all these things."

6/6/10

2010-06-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

亲爱的部落格：

你回去两天了，真的很想你。不能通电，不能见面，就连声音也听不见。我对自己说，只不过是短短的6天而已嘛，很快过的。可是，想不到原来两天时间已很难过了。看见同龄的情侣到处去逛，去玩，心里羡慕极了。想起我们，最多只去过pizza用餐。或许是我们的父母都比较严吧！

和你在一起都快一年了。很快吧？人家说开始得越早的情侣多数都结束得很快，都没有结果。我开始担心了。和你越久，爱你就越深，以后要分会伤得更深。我知道你会说我胡思乱想，可是，这是现实，迟早都会面对的。因为身边真的没有早恋的情侣会一直到永远。我不想失去你，因为我爱你。

坦白说，我们身边都没有几个支持我们在一起的人。就连身边的朋友也不太同意，虽然他们嘴边不说，可是我知道。

我知道你爱我，你疼我，我也觉得很幸福。可是，上了大学之后，要分开了，你还会爱我吗？

你不再身边的时候，心里头涌上了千千万万个疑问，开始胡思乱想了。昨晚，我睡不好，半夜一直起床看电话，我一直都没关机，就只因为害怕你打来，你传简讯来，可是，左盼右盼，手机里还是没有新讯息。心里有些失望。你应该在忙吧？或许真的不方便所以没有通简讯给我吧？

我好想你，快回来！！

22-05-2010

2010-05-22T11:32:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Today was a fine day. i love the whether today. very windy..very coosy...very...soft....
this morning, i went badminton wit my siblings. i met him n his frens there. they were playing badminton too. =) we only talked for a while.

2 days ago was our 11th month anniversery. as usual, we din celebrate. infact, we almost forgot! =D

the exams were fine. except SEJARAH! the paper 2 was very very difficult. oh gosh! after a week of headache, there's 2 more stressful week to go. this coming week is going to b the worst! add maths, bio, chemistry, physics,moral...=.= all those difficult subjects! n i havent start to study! T.T

after all those stressful weeks, i'm so going out! anywhere would be fine. as long as i gt to go out. haha.

oh well.. gtg..love u guys. will update soon.

14th May 2010

2010-05-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

yesterday was a nice day. after school, he brought me to the doritis field. the weather was wonderful, it was so windy, it kinda feels like when u're at the beach. we walked there. we sat down on the bench in the park, talking. it was romantic. he said so many times of 'i love u'. i felt suprised that he would suddenly bcame such romantic. haha.. n of cox happy.

suetyen, huisin, yiyee, yeongkit werent in sch yesterday. i was bored. i sat wit calvin after recess.

Bt there's stil sumting bothering me. there was a SUMONE. the SUMONE was my best fren. bt i duno y, we werent close any more. i duno wats the SUMONE thking. i thk the SUMONE feels annoyed. i miss the SUMONE. i miss the old days we had. i bet the SUMONE wont even care to rmber the old days as the SUMONE is having a happier times nw with the current best buddies.

oh yea! the present tat i gave him tat day, he loved it very much. i saw him taking pictures of it in his handphone. tat proves he rili love it! n he wear it to sch evryday. i love him! =)

08/05/10

2010-05-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

亲爱的部落格：

今天，我偷偷的买了属于我们两个的小礼物。不知道你会不会喜欢，可是这是唯一一次我亲自挑选的。这个礼物，我希望你会用着。当我看见你用着我送的礼物，我会特别的高兴，这证明你喜欢。

近来的时间似乎过得特别快。每次和你在一起的时间，真的好像一眨眼就过去了。不知你是否会发觉我们在一起的时间总会过的特别快。我对你的思念一天比一天更多。

每当和你在一起，感觉很安全，很幸福。每次当你牵着我的手，我可以不看车就过马路，因为我知道你会安全的牵着我过马路。你就好像是我的守护神，永远守住在我身边。有你在身边，我什么都不怕。

我知道做我的男友不好当，我这个又野蛮又任性的大小姐常常给你添来麻烦。当你有事情的时候，我什么都帮不上忙，感觉很自卑。男友遇到措择的时候，身为女友的，竟帮不上忙。

老公，我知道你为了我牺牲了许多，谢谢你，我爱你一辈子。

the ponggal competition

2010-04-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

I love you.....

Dear diary,

today..we had ponggal cooking competition in school..i had joined the competition..there are 5 ppl in a group..my group members are fookhang, yeongkit, shienyang, gene n i..=) b4 this, i wanted HER to join our team..cox i dun wan to b the ONLY girl..haha..bt den its too late..we already registered..so sorry! i felt very guilty after letting HER down..i dissapoited her.=(

well..it turns out not wat i expected..bt at least we had fun? haha.. the fire problem again..xD we din rili managed to start a fire..haha..we took very very long time to heat up the pot..n at the end of the day, the rice wasnt rili cooked..=.= haha.. bt its ok..=) n hey! THX for the fire starter n ur help! =)

haha..n at least this time, i din stepped on the food like wat i did last year!! haha..

during the competition, a few frens were bz taking our pic..n one of the pic..tat i love it the most..its so natural..u dun have to poss or anyting..its just so natural...(although my face looked retarted. XD)

after all the "hardwork" under the hot sun..its time for lunch! =) haha..suprisingly, school provide us buffet lunch (although the food wasnt rili delicious, bt i appreaciate it..) bt then, he had to go home d......

there are some pics tat we took this morning..=)

THANK YOU! =)

21st of march 2010

2010-03-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

yesterday was my birthday. It was our 9th month anniversery too.. last nite, i had a big party. my parents love me so much n r willing to throw such grand party for me.

n thank you to those frenz tat attended my party last nite.. i had a wonderful time.. =)

there were almost 70 of them came to my party. ZX, brenda, stephanie, Liqing n i had sum performance. I hope they enjoy it.. n thx to them for making my party beautiful. i even sang a song to my parents last nite.."HOW DO I LIVE" .. we had lots of fun.. we played games.. christopher kissing gene..yk eating spicy chillies.. ismat asking nata for a dance..n so on..it was so fun!

everyone dressed well tat nite..especially him.. i never seen him in tat kind of outfit b4.. he looked very charming last nite. bt unfortunately we dont have the chance to take photo 2gether.

the cake was the the climax of the party. the cake was so beautiful. my parents specially bought tat cake for me. it was a BIG cake. it costs almost RM280. thank you for the perfect cake. =)

lastly, i received lots of presents.. =)

he gave me a heart bottle of glowing stars..he made it himself.. i was rili touched.. i cant belive he would do such thing for me. i love him.

n secondly, Zx gave me the bottle cover.. i told her b4 tat her bottle cover was rili nice..n her mum specially made it for her.. bt last nite, when i opened her present, i was touched..she gave me another bottle cover that her mum made..it was so beautiful..i was rili touched.. n there's many other presents tat i love it very much too... =)

to all my frenz tat come, thank you for the wonderful nite.

n to YOU,I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. THANK YOU.

15 march 2010

2010-03-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

i'm feeling very very depressed. i feel tat the distance between us is getting more far. i'm trying my best just to act like i dun care. bt actuali i care bout it so much. in front of u, i act like i dun care, it doesnt matter. bt behind u, i'm crying like hell. do u noe it? u said i dun care bout ur feelings, bt did u noe all the things tat i did is just bcox of u? u accuse me like tat, i just swollow it. wat else can i do? i'm trying to kip this relationship. i'm trying to avoid arguments, bcox i noe i cant bare tat much anymore.

tat nite, i rili tot we r over. bt the next morning, u tried to act like ntg happened, back to normal. i noe i din wan to seperate. i said this tat nite is bcox i was so fed up of u. so, when u act like ntg happened tat morning, i just folow u. bt since tat day, i din tok much to u. i'm starting to b dull.

yesterday, i asked u bout bad. u said ok. den, ur fren told me tat u hav tennis 2ml wit him too. so, i asked u again at nite, u said ok. den i asked u bout tennis, u said its ok, u stil can go bad wit me. i told u to choose, bcox i noe u wil b very tired by the time u finish tennis, n no point go bad wit ur body bt without ur soul. u said nvm, u can make it.

when i went there dis morning, at last ended up i'm playing wit my bro. he was playing wit his frens. wats the point of promising me again? bt i just kept quiet. i never told u. b4 going back, u grabbed my hand n appologized to me. i was touched, i tot i can forgive u. i tot tat everyting's gonna be fine again. "When u hold me like this, when u touch me like tat, we forgive n forget, n is all coming back to me.." bt i was wrg.. u hurted me again after tat, idk hw long can i bare anymore. i feel very difficult to kip this relationship. i gived up once, bt u pulled me back. bt when i'm wit u again, u never appriciate it, bt kip on hurting me again. u never realized hw much u've hurt me.
i never wanna tell u bcox i dun wan to make it worst.

u saw the text msg tat me n him sent? u said i even text him more than u. do u noe y? is bcox u never give me a chance to text u. even if i do text u, u wil never have time for me. do u noe hw it feels to be ignored by ur loved one? He n i r just normal frens, bt y do i text him more than u? i thk u shud noe the answer ur self.

last month, since CNY, u were so bz. u din even have time for me. i understand u're bz for the performance n exam, bt u promised me after all these, u promise u wil spend more time wit me. izit so hard for u to spend time wit me? u come just for the sake of having time together, bt u never enjoy it or u come bcox u rili missed being wit me?
i never received any presents frm u since we were together. its more than 9 months d. the 1st valentine wit u, i gt ntg. u said bcox it falls on CNY. its nt bcox of the presents, i wan sumting to kip as memory. i'm afraid b4 i gt anyting for memory, we've already split. i wan sumting to rmber in our life time of this relationship.

my party is coming soon. i tot u confirm can make it. ive planned everyting so perfectly, so wonderful. bt den u told me u cant confirm yet. bcox mayb u're going back to malacca for QING MING. wat more can i do? i'm just feeling so depressed n dissapointed inside. i din told u. i'm trying to kip everyting to myself. bt sumtimes, u stil just cant understand me. do u ever care hw i feel? arent u afraid tat sum day i might lose control n give up on life? or u doesnt even give a damn?

tats it. if u rili loved me, u wont let me cry. "the one tat rili loved u wont let u cry, the one tat make u cry is nt worthed for u ."

5th of March 2010

2010-03-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

i din went to school 2day. i was lazy..haha..i cant woke up just nw..i was too tired..XD.. n bcox of this oly i realised there's a few person tat actuali care bout me..haha..they noticed i din went to school..haha..a few frens called me in the evening..they asked me why i din go to school..haha..include HIM..=)

well..his performance is 2ml..he'll b dancing wit another gurl on the stage 2ml nite..unfortunately, i cant make to watch him perform..i just wish tat sumone would take the video n let me watch after tat..haha..

haha..i heard tat YK was lonely 2day..he n kishvan went to sit wit yetesh..bcox..concidently..kishvan's partner..vishallan din went to school..n yetesh's partner, nyeera din went to school either..so 3 lonely guys with their absent partner sat 2gether in cls..haha..

n yesterday was nyeera's bday..we oly get to celebrate for a while..haha..

exam's a few days away..n i have not prepare anyting yet..oh gosh..i'm gonna fail my test this time....

25-02-2010

2010-02-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

I'm mad at sumone! the person oly care bout themselves bt they forgot bout the rest. They must rmber, they are also just an ordinary student..they dont have special power or rights..they cant do things the way they like without discussing wit the others..
they've just spoilt my day...

in school..my lens r dry again..he forced me to take out my lens n put on glasses.. i noe i looked horible in glasses..he said no..sum of my frens said no..i knew its just bcox..they dun wanna hurt my feelings..thx to u all..anyway..i knew the truth..=)
had fun wit YK, KISHVAN n VISHALLAN in cls.. haha..kishvan is folowing vishallan n his family to hong kong..haha..

after school..we tok in xfire..just for a while.. i guess tats the time we spent the longest together.. i want TIME wit him..a spare time together..just both of us.. U n ME.. bt i guess ur scedule is full without me..i knew u're quiet bz nwadays..u hav practices to atend b4 6th of march..u have lots to study as exam's rili coming..i understand this..bt pls..when u hav spare time..can u reserve sum for me? i planned to go badminton wit u long time ago..n finally there's a holiday 2ml..just one step b4 i asked..i already heard tat u gt plans to fill ur day.. after 6th of march the performance's over, i guess u'll nt going to b tat bz rite? or not? exam's on 9th of march.. u'll b bz again.. after this exam..another exam again..exam after exam..non-stop..u'll b bz-ing non-stop den..when will we hav OUR time?

i guess tats US.. its coming to an end..

19th february 2010

2010-02-19T13:31:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

he finally came back. i missed him. 2ml's our 8th month anniversery. no more celebratiom AGAIN. we did not even celebrate our very 1st Valentine's Day. bcox it falls on the 1st day of Chinese new year. =(

i talked to him in the fon just nw. just for a lil while. until his mum's back. dont rili talk much..bt i'm happy wit it. =) oh gosh! i miss him so much. i just wish the school reopen now. but its gonna b the same too..not much different. we are nt in the same cls like we used to b anymore. i rmbered last year was PMR year. everyone work hard for PMR. stressful too. bt i love schooling days. i tried to be present on every schooling day. so i can see him in cls everyday. =) sumtimes.. when i jst woke up. i'll feel lazy to go to school..feel like going back to bed..n hav my beauty sleep..xD bt last year..i never felt lazy to go to school.. he's the power pushing me..nt to b lazy.. he's the one tat makes me love schooling days..so i can see him everytime..

bt nt anymore..tat was last year..when we were in the same cls. We are nt in the same now. nt much time together. the only time 2gether is b4 school starts, during recess..n when school dimissed. its only a few minutes there. mayb only thursday n friday's tuition we get to meet. bt couldnt talk too..its tuition time..we have to listen n pay attention to the teacher.. so...its just fate.. let the god lead the way..where we can hav our own quality spare time.

this chinese new year to me just seems normal..boring..ntg rili much happened..

oh well..tats all for now..will upload soon.

valentine's day & chinese new year

2010-02-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines Day Graphics hosted at MUDTRAP.COM

HAPPY SWEET VALENTINE'S DAY, SOR LOU!!

&

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL THAT CELEBRATE!!

12-02-10

2010-02-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

It was the last day of school.. i wasnt really happy in school...YK's nt here..he went back to Penang.. Stephanie, SuetYen,Yiyee, HuiSin, Kishvan, Vishallan n Calvin acompany me in cls 2day..thx to them..my school day wasnt tat bored...

after recess..he made me sad..for the whole day..until 7pm just nw..when we were having tuition..he apologized to me..we din talk much 2day..until he on9 just nw..we just tok for a while..

i'm alright now.. sometimes..he just dun wan to tell me wats going wrg..he rather kip it to himself..n let me misunderstand.. now...i rili rili noe..tat he love me so much..tat he's willing to bear everyting himself..bt trying to make me nt involved..n i stil cant understands him..at the time he's having pain..i cant help him..bt make him more misarable..i'm nt a good gurlfren..sumtimes..i thk i dun even deserve him..

oh well..he gave me a bunch of candies n lolipop in school..he bought it through the chinese society in school..=) its sweet!

3rd february 2010..

2010-02-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

yesterday was XX's bday..i wished him..at nite..we started to sms..it rili brought back lots of old memories... i missed my primary sch..our cls..my best fren..ZX, brenda,CJee n me..we were the closest fren ever..too bad..cJee shifted back to s'gpore..

last nite..i read bout a story..its rili touching..its about a man's love story..how he's willing to sacrifice for his partner..hw much he loved his partner..bt at last..he died in the young age of 30..its so sad.. his wife was a author of sum magazine..she wrote a story bout him after he passed away..left down lots of old n touching memories...

valentine's day is coming..this is going to b the 1st valentine day tat i've celebate wit him..bt..unfornutely..this valentine falls on sunday n the 1st day of Chinese New Year..=( i've always wanted to celebrate valentine's day..wit roses, chocolates, poem, love letters, presents, teddy bears, hearts....to receive..i've always wanted sumthing on valentine's day... bt i told him nt to buy..haih..

oh yea..i bought a blouse..a dress n a skirt for CNY..ntg much to buy..i want to shop for shoes! any idea where to shop? hehe..

this morning..as usual..as i was sitting wit YK..his sister sudden came into our cls..she saw us sitting 2gether again..i thk she've misunderstand bout us..i hope she doesnt go simply "report" to her parents..haha...

oh well..tats all i thk..bye..

26th January 2010

2010-01-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it was a rainy day... i stayed back 2day..i went lunch wit him..=) den we went to choir audition... at 1st, i was there just to acompany him..he said he wont sing if i din stay..haha..so i acompany him.. den he sang "ONLY LOVE".. i went in wit him to the audition hall..haha...Shawne let me in!! haha..thank you..=) n so..he started to sing..it was OK..haha..he looked at me when he sing..OWH..SO SWEET! haha... den only i noe..i must audition too! haha.. i din prepare at all..shawne called me to sing "HERO"..n so i did..haha..bcox my brain was blank tat time..haha...bt i'm nt rili nervous tat time..haha... bt i din dare to look at them..even him..haha.. i was actuali worried when i was singing...bcox i had a sore throat..i was worried tat i cant sing the high pitch part..haha..bt BUDDHA bless me! haha..it turn out to b good..(oh well..at least i thk so..) haha... he did well too..bt its just a lil bit too soft..haha..bt it was OK..=)den my mum sent him home too.. i hope he can pass the audition n enter the real competition..=)
he treated me so well dis days..i can feel the love..haha..he even joined choir cox of ME!

oh gosh..i dk wat's happening to me...bt since yesterday..my legs n hands were rili pain! n i had stomach pain..n its a srs pain too..haih..n i had a bad cough n running nose last nite..i can barely sleep..haih..n dis morning..i woke up wit allergy on my leg..=(
during recess..my stomach was pain like hell!! i almost cry! den after audition..i felt dizzy..i went home n took a shower..n den i'm FEVER! =.=
bt i'm stil typing dis post..even though i'm dizzy n lots of hwork awaiting for me..=( haih..i dun feel like going to sch 2ml..bcox there's a presentation goin on..n i'm holding the mahjong paper..so..if i din go 2ml..i'll get my group into trouble..haih..no choice...

2day..we did 2 experiment in sch..one is physics..bout pendulum bob..n another one is chemistry..bout melting naphthalene...its was fun..=)

yesterday..there's sumting happened tat made me feel so sad n dissapoited..(its nt bout him..)
i feel so sad, dissapoited, speechles..when i heard tat.. i feel tat mayb its true..mayb i wasnt suppose to do tat...
bt..everyting turn back to normal 2day...

22th January 2010

2010-01-22T17:30:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

its raining heavily outside...

i felt unconfortable.. sumting or sumone is bothering me... sumtimes..i felt confused..is there a bond between us?.. i want to noe the real answer..i thought i feel sumting between us...bt the answer u gave me was different frm wat i though..are you rili telling me the truth? or its just bcox of........ or i'm rili misunderstanding?.. i just wan to noe the real answer..it wont affect our current status...i promise..

i know i m thking way too far..n i noe its nt right to thk bout tat...bt i just wan an answer...

19th January 2010...

2010-01-19T17:33:00.001+08:00

silly us...XD

he took the silly pic of me..xD

Dear blog,

today was a fine day...=)

i had fun in the cls..haha..i annoyed YK the whole day..until he cant stand me..n ran away frm me..n went to sit with Nyeera n the gang..xD its so funny... haha..i wonder hw he felt..is he rili annoyed? or he's enjoying too?..haha..

i had a big scar on my face..bcox of my pimple!! argh! i looked so ugly!!

oh well..after school..i finally gt a chance to go badminton wit him...hehe..i'm bz the whole week..everyday tuition..except tuesday n sunday ni..=(

he kip on saying tat i'm fat! ARGH!! we bet on a game just nw..if i won him wit the score of just 1/10..he'll b my slave for the whole month..n he'll reload my fon bil for me..xD n guess wat? i WON! easily..haha

2ml is our 7th month anniversery! i wonder anyting special coming up?..haha..he never gave me anyting b4..=( oh well..i guess i better dun get my hopes up too high....

oh yea..2day SY bought MISC magazine 2 sch! haha..after hw many years..i gt to see again..haha..

n now oly i realise..i've been bz dreaming bout valentine tat i've forgoten bout my mum's bday! oh gosh! my mum's bday is coming soon..wat shud i get her????? SOS!!

18th January 2010

2010-01-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

HURRAY!!! he's back! he called me just now! haha..i missed him so much...

school 2day was normal..except tat i was so sleepy..i duno y suddenly i felt so sleepy in the cls..haha.. mayb its kinda boring?..he din came to school 2day.. 20th is going to b our 7th month anniversery..i wonder tat he would rmber?..haha..

well..i talked bout my dreamt birthday party in school 2day wit YK..haha..i love to day dream..i told my mum last nite tat i want my dreamt bday party..at last..i kena scold ni..=.=
hui sin hav running nose 2day..idk hw many tissue she had used 2day..haha..i thk half of the rubbish bin was the tissue tat she used..haha...SY..she found the sinopsis for our presentation d..she's good n FAST! hahaha...

oh well...valentine's day is rili coming...n i hav a BIG QUESTION to ask..anyone out there..pls giv an answer on my question...DO GIRLS NID TO GIV HER BF A VALENTINE PRESENT???
haha.. i'm confused..idk whether to give him ont..haha... n another problem is to buy the present..hw n where to buy the present without my parents noticed??
oh gosh! pls..anyone out there..help me solve this question as soon as possible..so i hav time to plan n buy his present..k? thx.. hehe

16th January 2010

2010-01-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it has been so long i din update my blog..christmas n new year were already over.. soon..chinese new year n valentine day is coming..

time pass so fast..i'm already form 4 for 2 weeks..i'm slowly getting used to it wit my new sch life..he n i were in different cls this year..i'm sitting wit yk n sy..

we dont rili hav much time together.. miss him so much..he's at kedah nw.. attending his cousin's sis wedding..he'll nt b in sch 2ml..i miss him!

last 2 days..we went pizza again..our BC teacher belanja us..haha..its the 2nd time i went pizza hut wit him..he's wearing the same shirt n same shoes..haha..i'm wearing the same shoes..xD

this year..i'm sitting wit yk.. sum of them started to misunderstand..haha..bt..yk is rili a cute n funny guy..its fun to sit wit him..=) bt i miss 3 doritis! time fly so fast..especially last year..2009! though we're having PMR..bt it was a fun year..a great year..its now oly a memory..the cooking competition..the singing competition..i miss last year!

there's still lots of things i wanna write down..bt i cant finish it by now..still got lots of homework...oh well..will update soon..=)

wonderful moments..

2009-12-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

group photo.....=)

smiles..=D

brenda & i romantic scene..

sunset....

Dear blog,

1 more days to go til my sis's bday..haha..bt we already celebrate it earlier last nite..haha..bcox she cant wait to open the present n my dad's going off to overseas soon.. oh well..i din get her anyting..mayb a belated present?..haha..hope she dont mind..we had secret recipe cake.. haha..we bought it yesterday..n its the secret recipe's 12th year anniversery..so..there's some contest running on on air in mix fm..we got a coupon..we must scratched the thing and to see r we getting a chance to win ont..n suprisingly, we got it!! bt it wants us to call the num to mix fm on air..so..we did..bt..the line is always bz...( too bad..)

oh well..wk had ask me out for shopping..i wanted to go so desperately.. i gt many things to shop! especially christmas presents! (tat i cant buy wit my parents around..) hmm..bt unfortunately, i dun thk my parents wil let me go out..=(

hmm..i din cal or sms him 2day n i'm proud of myself.. ^^ n he sms me at nite..haha.. we're ok again..no more quarrels.. mayb going to badminton wit him 2ml?..haha...

last friday..we had a small gathering..oly a few ppl turn up..bt..we had a romantic evening..haha..n its WITHOUT him..ahaha.. we went to the lake..we saw sunset..(too bad..he's nt there..) we had lots of fun taking pics..ahaha.. wonderful moment...

记得。。。

2009-12-10T15:47:00.000+08:00

我们都忘了这条路走了多久

心中清楚的有一天有一天都会停的

让时间说真话虽然我也害怕

在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了却没办法往回走

两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么当时我也不懂

两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空

走了太远终于走到分岔路的路口

是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦。。。

** 这是我现在的心情。。。你就好像是一把刀，狠狠地往我的心插去。一次又一次，你觉得我还能承受多少次呢？伤口复原了，还会留下疤痕。我怕了，我不敢再接近你。我害怕再受到伤害。我开始觉得辛苦了，你的忽冷忽热，令我开始捉摸不到你的心。。

...

2009-12-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

i wasnt happy today.. can anyone tell me wat to do? i feel hopeless..why's everyting seems to go wrg?..

y he wanna giv me soo much hope..n let me fall in the end?..y he wanna do tat everytime?..

i rather choose to b normal..i dun wan any promises...

cameron trip.....

2009-12-06T21:02:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it had been a cold week..i went to cameron wit my family n my dad's fren... it was the best cameron trip i ever had..i thk?..haha..i usually dun rili like to go cameron..bt this time's trip was fun..=)

we went jungle trekking...it was fun..n COLD..of cox..we went to the BOH tea plantation ..it was adventuring..we sat in a zip..wow! i never had tat experience b4..bt nw i do! haha..

we went to the BOH tea factory.. the tour guide told us..BOH stands for..BEST OF HIGHLANDS.. =)

at nite..we had steambot for dinner..haha..after tat..we had karaoke competition..haha..i won! ahaha..it was a fun day..=)

the next morning, we had telematch at the hotel's hall...it was very very FUN! i havent seen my dad so crazy b4..haha...we have coconut bolling..haha..it was nt as easy as i thk..xD coconut bolling is totally diff frm the original bolling..haha..it was kinda difficult..den..we hav to hop in the bag provided..turn around until u'll bcome dizzy..sat on balloons...step on bricks..n many others...it was real fun!

at nite..it was my dad's company annual dinner..we had bbq buffet dinner..=) we hav games again..it was fun too..passing passwords around...n sum other games..den..we hav lucky draw..my family gt a rice cooker! haha...

n there's a fren of my dad who looks like YK..haha..except for he's much older..haha..bout 30++..he's an engineer..=)

this few days i went to cameron..he din rili sms me..=(

oh well..tats all for nw..

2th of December 2009

2009-12-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a windy day..

i went working 2day..it was my 1st day of work..haha..well..it isnt a real job..haha..i just went to my uncle's shop to help out..haha..

hmm..well..it was a tiring day.. n hey..i din sms or call him during my working hour..professional huh?..ahaha..

well..at nite..i chat wit YK..haha..nw days we did dis almost evrynite..=) he went to work too..as an office boy..haha..
he n YK is nt going to attend WK's party.. oh dear..i'm scared to face her parents..dun rili feel like going..bt..she's my best fren..hw can i missed her bday party?!! i noe she had plan this long time ago..i cant let her down...bt i'm scare...wat shud i do??
rite..i thk i'm going to tat party!!

he called me just nw..we just hang up..

it was last tuesday, my parents went overseas..he came to my hse..we watched movie..sang karaoke..on9..spend our quality time together..just me n him..i was hoping for this long long ago..^^ tat day..like he promised me b4 PMR..he brought me out to pizza hut.. it was our 1st REAL date..haha..we walked there...it was soo hot..we walked at 3pm..haha..can u imagine hw hot it was?..haha...bt it was fun..so romantic..so sweet!!... he holded my hands along the way to pizza hut..haha..

n he's the one who do all the payments..even though i bought another home for my sis n bro..he payed tat too..^^ haha..it was rili fun.. n on our way back, guess wat?.. we saw PN.KHAW..haha..our BC teacher..she fetched us to the plyground near my hse..den we walked hm...

oh gosh..tats wat i've been dreaming for soo long...ahaha..=)

Christmas is coming...can you feel the christmas spirit already?..i wan christmas presents!! especially frm U!! haha.. i wanna spend every christmas wit u...do u?.. i wanna go xmas shopping wit u.i just wish one day it'll come true.......

21/11/09..

2009-11-21T18:59:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Yesterday was our 5th month anniversery...we din get to wish each other...=(

Its already the 4th day..means he's coming back 2ml!! yeah!! i miss him so much..

Oh yeah..i saw his old bike a few days ago..at club..i took a pic of it too...wanna let him c when he's back..=)

hmm...the christmas atmosphere seems to arrive early dis year..many shopping complexes have already put up all those christmas decoration..haha.. I LOVE CHRISTMAS!! christmas is da best festival ever!! the decoration is so nice..

19/11/09...

2009-11-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Dear blog (the second day without u by my side..)

It has been quiet sum time i din update my blog d..

He went to Hanoi, Vietnam for 2 days already..i miss him sooo much...nw oly i realised hw much i've been depending on him...nw i rili rili do miss him..this few days without him..the time just seems to pass soo slow...everynite..i forced myself to sleep..so i can dream longer..dream bout him almost everynite..evry morning..the moment i opened my eyes..i just wished it's already the 5th day..the day he come back..haih..bt its just seems still long way to go....

2ml is our 5th month anniversery .. n we're gonna missed it AGAIN..haih..cox he's still in hanoi..i bet he's enjoying dere..tat he even forget bout dis...will he miss me like the way i do?..

he called me that nite 3.30am..b4 he head to the airport...n since then..we din contact..i miss him..we used to tok in da fon everyday..without fail..one day without calls or msgs..i rili cant stand it..i miss him!

i went to badminton 2day..wit my bro n sis..it isnt the same..he wasnt there..=(

I MISS YOU SO MUCH...CAN'T U HEAR ME?..I SAID I MISS YOU!!

04/11/09...

2009-11-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day is already wednesday..n he's leaving 2ml afternoon..he's going back to kedah..until sunday...i told myself..its just 4 days..it'll past very fast...i thought i can cope it..bt i cant..i even dreamed about it last nite..i dreamed tat he's going back..like for a very long time..n i dun wan him to go..i begged him dun leave him..den my head went straight to knock the bed..ouch! it hurts! ahaha..den i woke up..xD i dunno y..dis time he said he's going back..i rili dun wan him to go back..i dun wan him to leave me...mayb i'm too relying on him d..

last nite..he suggested to make a fb acc together..so..i made one..^^ its an acc wit 2 ppl sharing..=)

AHAHAHA...oh wait! i just gt a msg frm him..he said mayb he's nt going back d!! yeah!! my dreams came true!! ahaha..cox dis morning, after i knocked my bed n woke up..i told my 'kakak' dis dream..( i tell her almost evryting..we were best fren..xD) ..she told me..the dream is telling me tat he's nt going back..

wow..spooky..she knows wat the dream wants to tell me...woooooooOOOOooooooOOooooOOooooOo............

03/11/09...

2009-11-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a fine day...=)

i went badminton wit him just nw..i met richard dere..he acompanied me while waiting 'coach' to arrive...xD
it was fun..he bcame so cute..ahaha...just dunno hw to describe..^^ we were supposed to swim 2day..bt it was too hot..my mum wouldnt let me swim..she wont want me to get darker..xD

he's going back to Kedah dis thursday..he'll only b back on sunday..i'm sure i'm gonna miss him! ahaha..xD

yesterday..my mum's uncle had passed away...rest in peace..farewell....

hmm..oh well...will update soon...^^

30/10/2009...

2009-10-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a fine day..

i went badminton dis morning.. it was great! haha..finally, i bit sumone..SHIEN YANG!! ahaha..xD thanks to coach FK!! ahaha.. he train me almost every evening.. yesterday, i went badminton wit him too.. at 1st, we were playing fine..bt then..i hurt myself..my backbone was hurt..so..we couldnt continue..he wont let me play.. then..we just sit there hanging around..until bout 5.30pm.. it was raining heavily..with thunder..we couldnt go home..especially him..he cycled here..
then i called my mum, i wanted to giv him a ride too..but he insist he dun wan..then i went back n left him there.. i told him nt to go home 1st until the thunder stops..bt i think he stils cycle in da rain wit the thunder..XD i told him to missed call me when he reach home..

bout 6 sumting.. he still didnt missed call me..i'm starting to worry..so..i called him..his hp dun hav battery d..i called his hse trying to find out wheter he reach home d ont..no body answered his hse fon..!! OMG!! normally his maid was in the hse..even though he's nt back yet..at least the maid can answer rite?..bt no..this time no one answered the call!! i'm rili started to worry..all those s2pid thing poped into my mind..wat could happen to him?..accident?..even his maid went out to rescue him?..OMG!! the thunder strike him?..!! i called Brenda to help me see if he's still dere..then brenda said..no..OMG!! its even worst! he's nt in da club..nt at home..then WHERE IS HE?!!

i kip on calling his hse fon..hoping for sumone to pick up.. bt there's still noone answered..i was rili worried..i'm starting to blame myself.. then he finally missed call me..bt the worry doesnt end like this..when i called back..he didnt answer..i called soo many times..at nite..he finally called me!! i'm rili over the moon!! he's fine!! yeah!! he said: sor po..i'm fine!! ....ahaha..then my mum came in..so..i close his fon..xD

tats him yesterday..=)

ahaha..tat day i went to join tennis lesson..it was fun! i wanted to join..bt my mum just wont let..=(

oh ya..the party tat day was great!! FK, YK, Daniel, ZX, Stephanie, Brenda, WY n JP came..it was fun..n i made them each a gingerbread wit their character on it..ahaha..YK ate the gingerbread man's brain..b4 the dinner started..ahaha..

well..tats all i think..will update soon! bye..=)

22/10/09...

2009-10-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

I din went to sch dis morning..

YK broke his leg..pitty him..hope he'll get better soon..

2day i bake sumting..haha..it was tiring..bt fun..at least my day was not as boring as last few days..
But i had a wonderful evening yesterday.. I went club wit him..the court was empty..the court was ours! ahaha..the funniest part was..i din even brg my bad racquets! so..at last..we just takes turn to play wit the wall..( i noe..crazy..xD )
well..though we only get to play wit the wall, bt at least we finally get to spend sum quality time together..ahaha..xD

at nite..he went tennis cls wit YK n WK..i supposed to go..bt my parents wont let me join..haih..again..i cant join them..=(

well..that's all..nites..sweet dreams...

20/10/09..

2009-10-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Today’s our 4th month anniversary. We did not celebrate it. It’s just the same old boring normal day. Although I wished something happen, but there’s nothing really going on. It’s really kind of disappointed. But besides sitting here waiting for the phone to ring, what can I do?

I always wanted a surprise. Anything will be fine. As long as I know he still remembers this special day without me reminding him. When I tell him I wanted something special, he’ll ask what do I want? What can I say? I said I always wanted a surprise, and a surprise won’t be a surprise if I tell him what I want, right? I really do admire those couples who are always active and romantic. I just wish I could one of them.

Well, tomorrow’s going to be Wednesday. And most all of my friends are going to Sunway Pyramid. Although I was invited to join them, but I still don’t get my parents permission to go. That’s why I’ll just spend my time tomorrow in school lonely. Well, at least I hope he’ll accompany me?

I really admire them who can go out with their friends. I just don’t understand why my parents just won’t let me go out with them. That’s what I’ve always dreamed about. I already planned this before PMR. I even asked my mum before PMR. She just said only ask this after your exam. And so I wait, wait, and wait. And now all I got is NO! What can I do? I really want to go out with my friends. Its not just because of shopping, it’s the feeling. Going out with friends is different. Going out with parents is also different. My friends always asked me out. But I rejected them every time. Because I know that my parents won’t want me to go out before exam. So I never asked them. But until now, I though I finally got to go out with my friends, but the answer is still no! I waited until my exam is over, only I dare to ask. But then, the answer is still the same. I’m really sad. All I want is to go out with my friends. I don’t want you to have all those party for me. All I want is just to go out with my friends. Why can’t you just understand? Other parents of my friends allow them to go out, but why my parents don’t allow me to go out? I really don’t understand

18/10/09...

2009-10-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Dear blog..

yeaah!! my dad finally came back frm Paris d!! miss him alot!! ahaha..he brought back lots of TOBLERONE chocolate..ahaha..my fav!! [bt it'll make me fat!=(] ahaha..
well..i thought i finally gt the chance to go shopping..bt then no..my relatives came to my hse..so..bye bye shopping!! =(

i just came back frm the wedding dinner just nw..the bride was a doctor..she's pretty..n i love her wedding gown so much!! its just like Beauty n the Beast Belle's gown..so cool!! i just hope i gt a chance to wear it..ahaha..( i noe..to early to dream for this..XD)
bt the dinner's atmosphere was nt rili there...bcox the groom's grandfather was in da hospital rite nw..they were like nt rili in a mood..

hmmm..well..2 more days til our anniversery..
well..we're going badminton 2ml..wit YK..ahaha..going to hav breakfast wit him too..mayb wit YK oso la..hehe..

well..tats it for nw..nites..sweet dreams.....=) muackx..

17/10/2009...

2009-10-17T18:45:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

There's 3 more days til our 4th month anniversery..ahaha..bt dun think he'll rmber..

Well..he went back to Malacca dis morning..n he's back nw..=) i din went to badminton dis morning..sorry..

oh well..2day i went to aunt's hse in KK hills..she's gonna move into her villa dis year end..^^ n i played with the babies..he's rili cute..cant resist it!! ahaha...

hmm..cant wait till my dad is back..cox i wanna go SHOPPING!!! ahaha..it was a boring day again actually...

waiting for u........

"shh..its a secret.."

16/10/09....

2009-10-16T15:24:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

PMR's finally over!! ***cheers***

well..BEFORE PMR,i wanted PMR to end soon..bt AFTER PMR..its nt wat i expected...
I though we're gonna be free after PMR..bt no..it turn out to be totally different frm wat i imagine...

last 2 days, we went to WK's hse for steamboat party..it was rili fun in da beginning..until sumting happen..we end up nt talking to each other..haih..=(

well..we were supposed to go sunway 2day..bt our plan failed...haih..no transport!! i've been dreaming to go sunway wit frenz..haih..

the holiday seems to be not very pleasant for me..i dun rili like dis holiday..i prefer PMR..at least i had lots more fun than nw..haih..this holiday hasnt been tat smooth for me...i'm rili depressed yesterday... sumting's rili going wrg....haih...

dun rili wanna tok bout it anymore..

22/09/09...

2009-09-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

Dear blog ( 3rd day without u..)

2day was da 3rd day without u...i'm missing you sooo much..tat words cannot describe hw i feel rite nw..

yesterday, i went back to my grandma's hse..all my small lil cousins were there too..at 1st, they were so cute until u cant stop playing wit them..bt then..they sticked on me the whole day..i felt a lil annoyed when they started to cry..it was tiring taking care of babies..he smsed me yesterday..he was also plying with his lil cousins..haha..

we had POT-LUCK party there..its kinda fun..we were celebrating "hari raya" for our maids..XD ahaha...n i taught lil Carmen to say 'broccoli'..ahaha..so proud of myself..XD

my family were all bz discussing our vacation plan..we're planning to go during winter..oh..i love snow!!! seriously...we went shopping..for winter clothing..ahaha..

Hmm..i wonder wat time u're gonna reach here?..been missing you for 3 days...do u miss you too?..i cant imagine da long holidays after PMR..i cant see u for 2 whole months!!!

20/09/09...

2009-09-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

Dear blog (the 1st day without him..),

today, he went back to Kedah..we cant call each other as the phone bill wil be very expensive..the 1st day without him...

yesterday was a happy day..i'm too bz to wrote it down..yesterday was my bro's birthday..we din rili celebrate actually..we went shopping at mid valley..it was fun..i went to try lots of winter clothing..we were preparing for our vacation..=]

last nite..he called me..we chat for a while..bt it was so nice..so confortable..
2day is our 3rd month anniversery! he wished me early in the morning b4 he went back..=] i miss him so much already...
i went to Marriot Hotel to have buffet just nw..wow..i love da desserts..XD yummy!
i just wish i had a chance to eat those yummy dessers( especially ice-cream with him..=] ) i miss you...

[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]

18/09/09....

2009-09-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a fine day...=] 2ml is my bro's birthday n i stil din get him anything..=(
2 more days til 20th..da 3rd month of us being together..i bet you doesnt even rmber...

This morning, i went badminton with him..as usual..i saw a couple too..they were in my skool..da boyfren will always be together wit her..every second..so sweet..i just wish you can b like tat...i knew everytime you went badminton..you rili wanna play wan..bt for me..its different..you know y i came badminton evrytime..this morning, i tried my best to cover myself in front of u..at 1st, i was rili happy..bt then..i'm nt.. i knew you wanna play badminton, tats y i din wanna disturb u at 1st..so i waited for u..waited n waited...at last, u finished ur game..den..i finally gt the chance to be wit u... so..we went out together..you holded my hand..for once..i felt rili rili warm..for once..i rili felt ur love...its just around 10 minutes..den u walked back in the court..
in my heart, i was wishing tat there's no more empty court left, wishing you can spend more time with me..bt unfortunately. u went in and started to play again..i looked at u..the way u played..u doesnt even noticed tat i was staring at u..when u finally turned n looked at me..i forced myself to smile..i dun wana spoiled ur mood..i knew u rili do wanna play badminton..so..i decided to go home..before i called my mum..i told u 1st..wishing you will stop me..n want me to stay longer..bt u din..you din even say goodbye to me..bt just waving ur hand..my heart was more dissapoited..bt i stil act like ntg was going wrg..i called my mum..while waiting for my mum, i cant control myself, my tears were rolling down..i dun want anybody to c this especially you..i went out the court..i was sitting on da staircase..waiting for my tears to dry..den i went back in..pack my things..before my mum arrived, i said goodbye to you..n you din even noticed there's sumting different in me..i was rili dissapoited...

after tat, i din call u at all..wishing you will call me back and asked me wats wrg..bt i waited n waited..u din call..so..i called ur hse..u said ur mum was at home..den we hung up..i waited n waited..finally u missed call me..bt i was having tuition.. so..i called u during tuition break..all u wanna asked bout is bout geografi..i was dissapoited..heart breaking..bt i act like ntg happen again...
i tell myself..its just a small matter..dun think too much..bout 7pm..i called him again..he was watching tv..just wanna chat wit u..bt u said my fon bill is expensive..dun wanna talk too long..den i asked u to call me den..u promise to call me at nite...bt until nw..its almost 11.30pm..i havent received any call frm u yet..i called u..u off ur phone..i sms u..u did nt reply..i rili dunno wat to do... and nw..its 11.33pm..u finally sms me..i knew u wont call me..ur msg says u cant call me..bcox ur parents were aroud u nn want to study.. bt hey, they want u study in dis late hour? oh..i just knew u wont call me...everytime without failed..i must call you..you never wanted to call me...
i was not happy 2day..i was trying to cover myself in front of u..bt deep down inside my heart..i hope u'll know the truth......

i knew you doesnt read my blog anymore..u doesnt even care anymore..perhaps time changes everthing..including our relationship.......

13/09/09....

2009-09-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

6 more days till my brother's birthday..and 7 more days till our 3rd-month anniversery...
i really have no idea wat to buy for my brother... i dont think he wants stationery or any books..as he hate study soo much... so..wat does he wants?!!
hmm..7 more days till our 3rd-month anniversery... i dun think he would remember..i always wanted to celebrate with him..just once! its enough for me..but everytime i ask him..he'll replied "how do you want to celebrate?" whenever he answered like tat, i felt tat he doesnt even want to celebrate..its like i'm forcing him to celebrate...haih..=(

hmm..i watched da NIGHT MUSUEM 2 tat nite..its funny..bt its nt as good as da 1st series...=)
** was sad..i cant confort him..i'm sorry..i hope ** wont b too sad..you'll find another better want..it'll b over soon..dun b sad..keep on ur smilling face..=) k?

hmm...everting else were fine..he n i were back to normal..at nite..we chat for a while..it has been sooo long we din rili chat like this before..so confortable..so calm..so soft..so sweet...ntg bout madness.. though we oly chat for a while..bt it was nice..its just rite enough...=)

well..i better get to bed rite nw..2ml is a schooling day..so..good nite..sweet dreams..=)

12/09/09...

2009-09-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

hey! trials was finally over! yeah! ^^

this morning, i went badminton again...i went wit him(of cox) n XX..i cant believe XX went! i asked him to call his frenz..i thought he will call his frenz too..bt today he turn out alone..haha..cox i'm afraid he will b very bored playing wit me bcox i was a lousy player..XD

so..evryting turn out well at last..haha

though there's sumting going wrg just nw..bt overall i was happy..=) 1st, i cant believe XX will play badminton wit me..2nd, i gt to b wit him 2day..=) haha..

thx alot to RZ n YK!!..=) thank you...

08/09/09....

2009-09-08T16:37:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

one more day and it's gonna be 09/09/09..number nine means forever in mandarin..^^

well..2day was a rainy day..love da weather..its cooling...

another 20minutes..n i'm about to leave for chinese cls...i was supposing to study da whole day..bt i end up chating wit him in msn..almost the whole afternoon..we chat in webcam..the webcam is kinda lagging today...

well..in school..we gt our sej, geo(recent) n bm(2nd trial) back..i gt an A for geo n BM..bt nt for sej..i was kinda dissapointed..bt he n suet yen was there to confort me...=)

well..i dreamed sumting funny last nite..an advise for u..NEVER DO SOMETING WRONG, IF NOT U WILL NOT SLEEP PEACEFULLY..XD haha..

well..got to run..chinese cls...=) bye..wil update soon....

29/08/09....

2009-08-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

Today’s still a sunny day…

First, I really wanna thank ** for being there with me when I really need someone…I’m really touched.. you’re such a great friend.. thank you…

I’m feeling much better today.. I woke up at 12pm today.. because I slept at 2.30am last night…hmm…I called him today.. we talked a lot…finally.. the matter was settled..=) and we didn’t quarrel today.. At least I knew he loves me.. XD

Listening to the “ Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye” right now.. suddenly I miss that song so much.. Its our song.. That song is so meaningful to me.. I just wont get bored of that song…^^

Well..our country is gonna be 52 years old in another 30 minutes… Suet Yen will also be 15 in another 30 minutes…so…
Happy Birthday..=)
"Coral Sea" is our song..this song proves our frenship..i never regret i was in 1 aranda bcox if i'm nt in 1 aranda..i'll never get to know u..my 38 fren.. you've coloured my dull life..thank you..n HAPPY BITHDAY....

 Missing you…

29/08/09....

2009-08-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a sunny day as usual...

dis morning, i woke up at 10am..den went out to Mc'd to hav brunch wit family..den..i went to tuition..i left my phone in the car..i was afraid tat my parents will check my phone and saw all da msg n pictures inside..bt luckily, they din..=) during tuition, i borrowed sumone's phone to sms him..i told him nt to send any msg to my phone..bcox its wit my parents..so..he din..

ntg special happened today..was just da same old boring day...

evening, my uncle came to my hse..his son was sooooo cute...just feel like wana kiss him n never let go..XD

ooh ya..WK said she'll b going to australia next month for da interview..if da interview rili success..she'll leave me soon..i know i'm rili gonna miss her...

in da evening, he finally answered my call..he said he was sorry..he din noticed..bla..bla..bla..evrytime da same excuse..i'm tired of it.. i rili hate it when i called someone many times..n he din pick up..
he went badminton wit her again dis morning..he knew i doesnt like it bt he still did..well..i cant stop him..its his freedom.. da worst part was..he din even tell me..
sumtimes..i rili wana give up..bt i just cant..bcox i rili do love him...haih...

well..sweet dreams...

i've been tagged by pingu..=)

2009-08-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged,
you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.
At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = water
2. last phone call = HIM
3. last text message = HIM
4. last song you listened to = Ai Wo Bie Zhou
5. last time you cried = last week?..

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = no
7. been cheated on = Yes
8. kissed someone & rgretted it = no
9. lost someone special = Yes..bt i hope i wont lost it again..
10. been depressed = yes
11. been drunk and threw up = no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. blue
13. pink
14. red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = yes
16. Fallen out of love = ??
17. Laughed until you cried = not rili..
18. Met someone who changed you = mayb?
19. Found out who your true friends were = yes..kind of?
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = nt rili..

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = nt sure..most of them?
24. Do you have any pets =yes..a cute german shephard ^^
25. Do you want to change your name = nope..
26. What did you do for your last birthday = celebrate wit my family n frenz in mc'd
27. What time did you wake up today = 10am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Chatting online
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = PMR's over..
30. Last time you saw your Mother = just nw?..a few minutes ago..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = i wished i've never met **
32. What are you listening to right now = ntg..
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = HE doesnt ans my call..argh!!
35. Most visited webpage = www.msn.com
36. Where you want to be right now = Paris..wit HIM
37. Nicknames = Kelly?..Yong Tao Fu..n da recent wan..ZHU ZHU..XD
38. Relationship Status = its complicated..
39. Zodiac sign = Dog
41. Elementary? = tadika sri utama
42. Middle school = SMK Kota Kemuning
43. Hair colour = Brownish Black
44. Long or short = long
46. Height = 170cm?
47. Do you have a crush on someone = definately yes!!
48. What do you like aboNope = wats tat??
50. Tattoos = nt rili..
51. Righty or lefty = Righty
52. First surgery = nope..n i hope i wont!!
53. First piercing = 2005..on da ears..
54. First best friend = hmm..its a her..XD
55. First kiss = secret..XD
56. First vacation = Singapore
57. First crush = Soon Yow

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = ntg..
60.Drinking = ntg..
61. I'm about to = study?..or mayb sleep?
62. Listening to = ntg....
63. Waiting for = HIS msg..or call..

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = yea..bt i'm afraid of pain..XD
65. Get married = Dah..if sumone wants me!!XD
66. Career = a stylish n rich doctor..XD

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Lips
68. Hugs or kisses = both r nice..=)
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = nt sure..XD
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Stomach
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship..
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = no idea...

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No
77. Drank hard liquor = nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts = yes!!
79. Sex on first date = NO!!
80. Broken someone's heart = Yes
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes
82. Been arrested = NO!!
83. Turned someone down = perhaps?
84. Cried when someone died = nope..nobody dies!!XD
85. Fallen for a friend? = yes...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Sometimes
87. Miracles = yes
88. Love at first sight = yes
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = yes!!=)
91. Kiss on the first date = no
92. Angels = Yes
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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= nope..
95. Did you sing today? = yes..=)
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = perhaps?
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = 2 years back..so tat i wont make tat mistake!
98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = yes..
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = No, because there's some questions were missing..

i TAG :
- Suet Yen
- Zhi Xuan
- Vanessa
- Lizen
- Rong Zhen
- Joey
- Chay Fhei
- Stephanie
- Elaine
- Joanne

>..good luck...<

28/08/09........

2009-08-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a sunny day...

i went tuition just nw... I lost da photos tat i took wit him in da phone!!!!!!!!! n i dun noe hw i lost it..oly da 2 pics dat i love da most were gone...n for sure i din delete those pics..haih..i'm rili sad..as i din hav another copy of it...

its 12.30am nw..i cant sleep... just finish chating wit sum guy..owh ya..i chat wit XX too! it has been a long time i din chat wit him...he's going to a camp 2ml..well..hope he have fun..=)it has been so long i din talk to XX..
haih.. n nw i'm stil waiting for his call..he promised to call me..bt he din call me yet..i've been waiting for da whole night..bt he doesnt call...mayb he's asleep?..haih..

my parents quarelled 2day..da whole atmosphere is fulled of sadness 2day...

sumtimes..i'm rili jealous of other couples..da guy always gives her suprises..sumting new..its rili interesting...i just wish i would b tat lucky...
do u rili believe in love in first sight?.. have you ever gone through this?.. sudenly..i miss "last year's show.." da show tat i 1st met XX..when i returned da folio's...haha..

hmm..cant wait til PMR's over..trials are rili just around da corner..n i havent get ready for it..haih..well..i'm gonna have to burn midnite oil for da next 2 days...=)

well..tats all for 2day..nites..sweet dreams...

"sumtimes, u nid suprises to colour da relationship n get rid of dullness....."

27/08/09...

2009-08-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

Dear blog...

2day was a windy day..so cold..

last nite..my eyes swollen..i looked like a pig..XD
bt at least i know there's sumone out dere who wil always love me..=)

yesterday..chat wit YK in msn..using webcam...bt i cant see his face wan..all i can see was da game..he's showing me da game da whole time.. he was playing wit him..we chat for a while until he left for tuition..dis was da 1st time i used my webcam..haha..XD ( out-dated..as usual..XD)

at nite..chat wit SY until 12am.. ntg rili much oso..just sum random topic...bt one thing is..we never run out of topics..no matter hw long we tok..we never run out of topics..mayb tats call gurl tok? XD..

well..ntg much to write..good nite..sweet dreams..

26/08/2009....

2009-08-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

its a sunny day 2day..=)

last nite, i din saw da stars..all i can see was the thunderstorm...T.T its kinda disapointed..
well..i dunno weather did he stayed up until 12am last nite..after looking at the sky for 10mins..i went to bed..

2day is the Chinese Valentine's Day.. bt ntg special happen..he din even wish me..=(
well..its nt wat i expected..i noe its just too good to be true..haih..=(
mayb i dreamed too much? XD ..i always wanted a suprise frm him..bt he never gave..haih..mayb i do dreamed too much la..XD

haih..dis days our convo is getting rili dull..we have ntg to say..or everytime we met each other..we sure wil quarel want..haih..wat shud i do?..

we went to tuition dis morning..ntg rili much happen...

well..its just another ordinary day 2day..ntg special..
wish all the chinese couples in da world..HAPPY CHINESE VALENTINES DAY!! Hope u guys will b together forever..=)

i just wish i will b tat lucky...

25/08/2009....

2009-08-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it was just a boring day 2day..da weather 2day was fine..ntg special..

2day was 6/07 on da chinese calendar..2nite at 12am sharp..da chinese believes there will b 2 stars tat shines super bright..tat 2 stars will b da "NIU LANG star" n da " ZHI NU star"...they have a romantic legend...long time ago..ZHI NU was an angel..bt NIU LANG was just a human..they felt in love..bt they cant b together..bcox ZHI NU was an angel bt NIU LANG isnt..so..they r oly allowed to meet each other on the 6th of da seventh month on da chinese calendar every year..pitty of them...

i was thinking to stayed up until 12am tonite just to spot da stars..XD i told him dis morning, bt he din noe wats da stars..at 1st, i was thinking to watch da stars wit him at 12am 2nite..bt since he dont even noe wats da stars..den no point of calling to stay up until 12am in da midnite..i noe its kinda s2pid n silly to stay up until 12am just to spot da stars..bt i want to giv it a try?..XD
well..i will just hav to watch da stars 2nite by myself..=(

trial exam is rili coming soon..its just next week..i can rili feel da pressure d..i 'm kinda scared..i'm afraid of science n KH!!!i dun rili understand da electicity da 2 chapters for science..n there's so many to memorise for KH teras...=(

dis morning, i woke up wit a bad headache..i slept early last nite..bout 10.30pm..bt i stil gt headache..i was rili tired last nite..bt i cant sleep well again..i kept on wake up at midnight..i was waiting for his call or msg again...

haih..dis days..i duno y..bt i think we always quarreled..even a small matter he did..i will oso bcome moody..or nt happy.. i just dun noe why..everyting he did seems to b nt enough..i called him dis morning, we talked for bout 3 mins oly..den we hang up..cox we dun hav topic to talk.. later..i missed him..i wanted to call him again..bt i told myself nt to call him..b i cant..at last we talk in msn..bt just for a while...

dis days..i rarely receive his msg n call anymore..everytime was me who called n sms him..he seldom call or sms now..although yesterday we went out together, bt i'm nt rili hapi..compared wit 2day..i think he feels more fun n hapi..he went badminton wit his frenz 2day..i think he's having more fun 2day..than yesterday he went wit me..sumtimes..i rili pitty him..i know he's boring when he went badminton wit me yesterday..he wants to go back early yesterday..bt i dun think he came back early 2day..

oh..i rili want to go to da prom nite..bt i dun hav a partner..he doesnt like to dance n go to da prom nite..

mayb..in my world..i live in a fairytale world..fairytale.. prince charming...happily ever after..do exist in my world..bt nt in da reality..i want those romantic love story..cinderella fairytale..bt i noe its just too good to be true..
oh..i just wish tat fairytale do come true...so..i could dance along da whole nite wit my prince charming...^^

24/08/09...

2009-08-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a sunny bt windy day...

dis morning, i went to da club wit him.. we played badminton 2gether..den we even studied together... we sat beside da swimming pool..den there was a bee came near us..so we moved to other place..den we saw a rat..i was scared..den we moved again..XD its kinda funny..XD

although was just a short period..bt i rili appriciate every single second spending wit him...

da day before today..i was wrong..i was too selfish..i oly thought of myself..bt i never thought of how he felt too.. i oly thought tat he doesnt understands me..bt do i rili understand him?.. m i an understanding gurlfren?.. i was too selfish....

i duno hw he feels or wat he think..i'm a failure gurlfren...i'm scared..i'm afraid tat one day he cant stand anymore n left me..everytime i want to stay longer wit him..is just bcox i duno whether do we hav our next chance together...

i'm sorry..i promised i wont b tat selfish anymore...i think more "RASIOTIONAL"..XD

23/08/09.....

2009-08-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a windy day...

dis morning, i went to ikea wit my family..my dad bought me diz new notebook.. i was so happy..thx dad!!^^

last nite..i couldnt sleep well..where r u when i rili need you?..all i want is just to b wit you...i just wanna spent more time together wit u..tats all i want..why couldnt u understand?.. do you noe y i wanna go play badminton everytime?..do u rili thought tat i wanna play badminton? i go there everytime is bcox of u..i wana spent time together wit u..
dis days..its rili rili difficult to get u..i rili appreciate every single second spending wit u..bcox i know our time spending together has a limit..i tried my best to spend more time wit u..bt u seems like u doesnt rili care bout it...

all i want is just to be wit you!!!i just wish tat u could understand ......................

oh ya..dis were da pic tat me n andrina took during tutuion on sat..n a pic wit WK n JP during JP's party..

21/08/2009.......

2009-08-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it has been a week i din wrote my blog..i've been bz-ing for my pre-trial exam..tats y no time to serve da net...

yesterday was our 2 months anniversery..XD bt we din celebrate bcox it falls on exam day..everyone is bz-ing for exam...2day was maths exam..it was quiet easy for paper 1..paper 2 quiet ok oso la..bt i noe i gt a few wrg d..T.T
yeah!! exam finally over!! =) cant wait till 2ml..going to play badminton wit him..^^

ntg rili special happen in dis whole week as it was a exam week..my silly fren WK, she already plan for her bday party which is still far far away...she already plan who to invite to her party, wat activities in da party..wat to wear...... haha..sumtimes its kinda fun having a fren like this..=)

last monday after school..we walked together..we were waiting in front of da SMC restaurant..he did sumting sweet to me..bt den a lot of ppl saw..they were laughing..i think even XX also saw..haha..its kinda embrasing..bt its sweet..=)

my family came back d..they bought many strawberies for me..i love strawberies!!!^^
well..i think tats all for 2day..will update soon...=)

09/08/2009..

2009-08-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

亲爱的部落格,

今天是阴天，可是天空没有下雨。

中午，跟家人到瓜雪去吃海鲜。望着海，吹着海风，心里总是在想着一个人。
昨天和他打了球以后，我们就没说话了。我打了好多通电话给他，传了好多简讯给他，可是他还是没有回我，没有接我的电话。
今天早上，我还是打了好多通电话给他，他还是没有接听。我的心开始出现很多问号了。我的心总是爱胡思乱想。我害怕他发生了什么事，还是他生气我了？
我开始担心了。结果，他终于missed call来了。我真得很开心，于是，我就打电话给他了。说不到一下子，我们又挂掉了电话。当我终于听到他的声音的时候，我开心的几乎哭了。
虽然只是一天不见面，不说话，可是，我真得很想念他了。没有他在身边，日子真的很难熬。

打了给他，本来有很多想说的话顿时不见了。说了一下子，他又去忙了。虽然没有话题，可是我也想在电话里呆久一些，这一切都是只因为想和他相处久一些。可是，他又忙了。
最近，他好像都很忙，一直都没机会和他谈电话。
是不是我太烦了呢？我不该每天都烦着他，让他有些私人空间? 我太自私了?我不该霸占他所有的时间..

我没有再打给他了。明天，我决定不去上学。原本，父母都叫我别去上学，为了能够见到他，我坚持要去上学，因为只有在学校，我才能见到他。现在，我改变了我的主意，或许没有我的一天，会让他轻松一些，让他的耳根清静一些。虽然，我会更思念他，可是，我觉得这样会对他比较好。或许后天，我也不会去上学。

他的妹妹好像生病了。他和家人都很担心。害怕得了流感。或许，他已经很烦了，我却又一直要他陪我谈天，加重了他的烦恼。对不起。

在等待着他的的电话。可是，我不会再去烦他。等待会让人疲倦，可是，等待着你，我觉得很幸福。不管要等多久，我会一直守下去。。。

09/08/2009........

2009-08-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

Dear blog..

it has been almost a week i din wrote my blog.. finally..exam's over!!=)

i went to the club this morning..n so did he..we played badminton..he taught me hw to play..(i sux in badminton).. n den..we walk out da court..we were walking around da club..chating..den we saw our moral teacher too..XD
it was quiet nice just to b wit him..though i just saw him dis mornin..bt i miss him sooo much already...i love every single second spending time wit him..sometimes when sumone ask me why m i in love wit him..i just can say love is blind..XD

at nite..i went to JP's burfday party..WK,ZX,SL,BL,WY,Nata,ANN-G went too..it was fun..i had a great time..it was a fun nite...we talked bout guys..as usual..XD n i knew about sumting which was truly unbelievable..XD

i called him sooo many times..bt he din pick up da call..n i duno wats wrg.. i hope ntg hapen..the song (I Really Miss You by S Club 7) suits my feeling nw..it just shows hw i feel rite nw..

well..goo nite..sweet dreams..

29/07/2009...( his burfday =)..)

2009-07-29T17:40:00.000+08:00

2day was his burfday..^^

i wished him at 12am sharp..bt i'm nt da 1st to wish him..T.T i finally figured wat to gav him as a present..at 1st..i called a guy to help me buy..he said he bought..so..i trusted him..n i wait..then..he told me da day b4 his burfday..tat he actuali din buy..i was so angry..n i felt i cant trust him anymore..i was panic..i din noe wat to gav him as a present..n i cant go out to get him sumting..then..my fren..JP..WK..n so on..sugested DIY..bt i hav no idea wat to make for him..as i only left a day to make..
i went home..n sudenly an idea just poped into my head..COLOURED-SALT!! den i started to make da coloured salt..i was scared if my mum saw tat..bt fortunately..she went out..n i gt da time to do..^^ i was thinking of him thruout da whole process of making da coloured salt.. =)

dis morning..da 1st person who signed da card was kenneth..den he helped me to pass around da card 2 his frenz..during maths period..we sat 2gether..i gav him da presents during maths period..i gav him da card everyone signed n a personal card i did n da coloured salt..i was scared tat he doesnt like da present as it was nt rili nice or a proper present..den he read da card..i knew he would laugh when he saw da personal card..n he kept on reading da msg inside..bt wat i wrote inside da card..was truly hw i felt..n he said sumting sweet after he read da card..=)
i rili hav no idea wat to giv him as present..mayb after PMR..when we gt da chance to go Sunway shoping 2gether..den i'll get him a proper present?..XD
during sej period..he sudenly wrote sumting on his text book n pass it to me..i looked at it..n i was touched..no words can describe hw i felt tat time..i've waited tat moment long long ago....

after skool..his frenz were chasing after him to wack him n pour water on him.. he was rili wet..n i saw him been wacked by a few person..i think he sure felt very pain huh?..XD i din rili stayed to watch da whole scene..as my mum was already there.. oh ya...XX waved to me 2day..after a long long time..we din sms..see each other..XD

he was so sweet 2day..i'm rili happy 2day..i've tried sumting tat i've never tried b4..though it was kinda scary..bt it was soooooooooo sweet..da words just cant describe it..

i wished everyday will b like 2day..SWEET!! ^^

" Another year older,
And what can i say,
Other than i love you,
On your special day...

Years have past,
From when we first met,
These have been times,
I will never forget...

Always remember
That I'm thinking of you,
Not just on your birthday,
But every other day too...

So i wrote you this poem,
And give you my heart,
To show that you mean the world,
To me, every part...

Happy Birthday, lao gong...=)"

I love you......

26/07/2009...

2009-07-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day is sunday..n there's 3 more days til his burfday..n i stil hav no idea wat to buy 4 him...i'm rili a failure gurlfren..i dont know wat he wants or wat he likes..i gav him chocolates for da past 2 years as burfday present..bt for da past 2 years..i gave him as a fren..bt this year is different..so i wanted to giv him a special present..at 1st..i'm planning to giv him a suprise party..bt then..i cant make da cake..as my mum is going to be at home..plus exam is rili coming soon..i'm nt allow to go to anyone's hse to make cake..=( then..i wanted to do sumting else..bt it doesnt suceed..bcox i cant get his photos...T.T and nw..i rili hav no idea wat to giv him as a burfday present..

in da afternoon..i did maths..i dont know hw to do factorisation..i hate tat topic..so..i called him n asked..he also cant get da ans..den..we started to chat..bt..dis few days..i felt tat our conversation is boring..there's nt rili any topics tat we could chat bout..mayb becox we met each other everyday..ntg rili much to say d..i'm scared..usually this problem is da main factor which make da couple breaks..=( or mayb i'm thinking too much?...

well..our pre-trial is coming soon..next week onwards..our life of hell started..there's no more freedom or holidays for us..its all juz about PMR..rili can feel da pressure d..

at nite..i went out to hav dinner wit my family..my heart was rili hoping to meet him dere..bt at last..we din meet each other..

yesterday..i played piano at a yamaha mini concert..i plyed 2 songs..n i sang 1 song..i was so nervous as i was da 1st wan to played in da concert..its nt rili a concert..its just sumting like a performance..a farewell party for my teacher.she was a good teacher..i wished she could continued to teach me..bt unfortunately..she has been offered to further her studies to UK..she's a rili good teacher tat i would never forget..n she taught me hw to sing as well..she can sing very well..i love her voice..^^ i'll miss you, teacher...

well..i think tats all for 2day..good nite..sweet dreams...=)

"i miss you..."

22/07/2009...

2009-07-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a fine day.. nothing much happen in skool 2day...

well..da "e-clipse" din turn out la..500 years once wei..n i missed it..=(

pre-trail is rili getting near..n i havent even started my scince revision..rili can feel da pressure d..

his mum stoped him frm surfing da internet..means he cant online d..=( i'll miss his comments..XD
sumtimes..i just loved him so desperately..just duno y..bt hw long do u think this relationship will last?..i knew he rili do loved me..bt i noe dis relationship wont last forever..because its just too good to b true..in my fantasy world..fairytales do come true..bout finding true romance..meeting prince charming..roses frm romeo..n stuffs... bt in reality..it doesnt exist..

well..tats all 4 2day..nites..sweet dreams..miss you..=)

21/07/2009...

2009-07-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

it has been almost a week..i din went online..i miss writing blog..
well..2day was a rainy day..it was so nice..i love da weather so much..it was rili cold..about 23.C ..which is rarely happen in KK..

yesterday was our "one month anniversery"..haha..bt we din celebrate la..XD
8 more days to go til his burfday..n i stil hav no idea wat to giv him as a burfday present..

during recess..when we walk down 2gether..though he's having flu..he stil covered da rain for me..tat moment was so sweet..bt i hope he doesnt catch a cold..=) sumtimes..when i saw him moody or thinking sumting seriously..i wanted to help..or asked him wat happen..bt i'm scared i was disturbing him..bt when i asked..he'll said ntg..i wanted to share all his difficulties..n stay wit him all da time..bt i'm scared i will annoyed him..i felt so helpless when he's having trouble..i cant do anyting to help him..i felt so useless..

after skool..we met in chinese tuition again..duno y..i was kinda nervous when i saw him..my feet sudenly bcame freaking cold..n da time seems to flew very fast..when i was wit him...1 n a half hour had gone so quickly...

n 2ml da sun , moon n da earth is forming a straight line..n i wanted to c so badly..bt i just duno wats da time..its a one in a life time chance..n i hope to see it wit him..XD

..i was kinda happy 2day..i gave him 98% 2day..2day had been a very special day for me..i wont forget this day in da rest of my life...will u?..XD

15/07/09.......

2009-07-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a rainy day..the weather was cold n windy..i love da weather..^^

he felt cold in cls..so i went to sit wit him..his hand was freezing..n he sat under da fan..XD we sat 2gether..bt ntg rili hapen la..bt i was stil happy..:) den..after school..we went chinese cls...he came late..again..i sat wit him...i duno wats wrg wit him 2day..bt he seems different...he kip on saying tat i doesnt like him anymore..n i doesnt care bout him anymore..n so on...haha..at 1st..it was kinda sweet n funny..bt then..i was a little anoyed..bcox i cant finish my essay on time..XD
he snaped my pic yesterday in chinese tuition..he showed me just nw..haha..i looked retarded in da pic..haha..
haha..overall 4 2day..though i was a little annoyed..bt its kinda sweet...^^ err..i give him 97% la..4 2day..=)

owh ya..i saw KC dating wit XX in cls 2day..haha..well..good luck!^^

trial exam is rili geting near..n i havent prepare yet..worry much..i hope i can score all A's in trial exam...

" dun think too much..i wont leave you..i will always love you..trust me....."

14/07/09...

2009-07-14T20:46:00.001+08:00

Dear blog....

2day was a sunny day as usual....its just another ordinary day......15 days more til his burfday...

well...he gt 98% 2day..n i gt 100%..^^ after sej period..i called him to acompany me to Aranda..so..we went up stairs...n sumting sweet happen..though i was kinda scared..bt its nice..=)
after school..i din sms or call him...bout 3.45pm..he sms me..he asked me to call him..so..i did...we only chat for a little while.. den...we met in tuition...it was kinda boring 2day..WK n HY wasnt there..da atmosphere dere seems rili quiet n boring..everyone was like so moody..n sleepy...

during science period in school..WK n i played sum silly game..its sumting like a love test..n i played tat game..it was kind of accurate..(well..at least for me?..or mayb him?..XD) da result of da test shows tat my dreamboy is him..n he played tat silly game too...da result of da test shows tat his dreamgurl was...(u know who i mean(me..XD)<
after school..i gave him a small love test again..i saw this on da newspaper..the question was like this: If u r so sleepy..bt u nid to continue ur work at late nite..wat kind of drink would u like to have to make urself awake?: a) coffee b) red or green tea c) softdrinks d)herbal tea..
he choosed da red tea..this means..he's a person who wanted "forever".. whoever he loved will b very lucky..because he's a trustworthy n loyal person..
well..tats wat da newsapaper said..bt..will he make it?..a loyalty person who wanted 'forever'?.. da decision is still up to him..........

i gt da cls photo 2day..i looked so ugly..he looked different in da photo..KC's bold in da pic..YK looked like a malay..SY looks da same..n HY look like a kid in da photo..XD ( no offence..) da gurls look nice in da pic..i think WK looked rili nice in da pic..^^ there's da choir's member group photo too...cant wait to c it..haha...

hmm...i'm doin sej notes nw..did he finish his?..dont think so..XD i'll borrow him 2ml as usual..XD
well..he's having tuition nw...dun wana disturb him la..good nite..sweet dreams......=)

13/07/2009...

2009-07-13T18:40:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a sunny bt rili hazy day..it was so hazy n smelly..tat i could hardly breathe..

diz morning..during perhimpunan, i was siting in front..same row wit XX.. he's still da same old handsome guy wit those soft hair..bt when i looked at him..da feeling was just nt dere anymore..duno sumhw..da feeling had just fade away..nw..i can rili tell tat i doesnt like him anymore...

den..teacher annouced da results of da cooking competition..at 1st..i thought we could get at least 3rd place..bt..then..when teacher annouced..we oly gt 8th place..well..its fine for me la..cox i'm satisfied wit wat we did on last sat...at least we had fun..n we had made a good team...sangeetha's group won 2nd place..congratz!!=) i can say tat their decoration was rili good!!

bsides..our cls won the papan kenyataan again 2day..n we din even update anything..XD

well..he finally admited in school 2day..haha...he gt 95% 2day..n i gt 100%..^^ nw i rili knew tat he rili does like me..i trusted him...i could rili feel it..=) he holded my hand again just nw..he tried to hug me again..bt i'm scared..i want..bt i cant...i felt so sorry to a fren...she was always there 4 me..bt i treated her tis way..i knew she's sad..i felt so bad..n i dont know wat to do nw.....i think i've been too selfish..i should care bout hw she feel..i knew hw she feel rite nw...i felt rili bad..wat should i do?..

i was confused..giv me a hince..wat should i do??.....

thank you 4 being there wit me when i need you............

12/07/09.....

2009-07-12T17:52:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day is sunday... i din went out 2day... i woke up at almost 10am 2day..(lazy bump..XD) he smsed me..he apologized to me bout last nite.. i wasnt angry anymore actuali.. i was being too sensitive.. n i think i'm annoying too..seriously..XD

i was being a good gurl 2day..i studied sej wit my bro..my mum helps us too.. bt i oly manage to revised 4 chapters.. n i did my sej notes.. as i was doin da sej notes..i think of him again.. i knew he wont do his sej notes..so i'm thinking to brg it to skool 2ml to let him copy..as da sej notes was a little longer than usual..i scared he cant finish it in last minute..so..i planned to brg it 2ml to let him copy..

i cant see him 2day..i missed him alot.. bt i tried to control myself nt to sms or call him..cox i dun wana annoyed or disturb him..though i missed him so much..bt i must control myself..

his burfday is coming soon..17 days more till his burfday..n i hav no idea wat to buy 4 him..i wanted a present which is special tat can make him remember forever..any idea?..

usually..ppl loves holiday more than schooling-day..i was like tat too..bt nt anymore..da day i started to like him..da day i started to love schooling-days..i just cant wait to see him..he was in my mind da whole time..especially..when da night falls..before i went to bed..i hope he would just say good night to me everyday in da rest of my life..bt i noe it's just too good to be true..it wont happen....its just a lame poem tat i made..for him.....

"The night glimmer shines,
my mind is fulled wit ur smiles,
especially when u looked into my eyes,
n when you holded me so tight,
all my tears had gone dried,
when u look me into ur sights..."

i miss u...

11/07/09...

2009-07-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

Dear blog..

2day was a sunny day..n we had cooking competiton in skool 2day..i was so excited...

my frenz brought 6 packs of fire wood n dry leaves...XD da cooking competition lasts for 1.5 hour.. at 1st..da guys start da fire..bt our group was kinda slow..no..it was da slowest! haha..we took about 45 minutes to start da fire..da fire just went off everytime..den we only left about 45 minutes to cook..da other group was almost ready..at last..da fire burns!! so..we put water in da kuali..den i put in da sagu..next..i put in da brown sugar n da pandan leaves..n den da pumpkin..and lastly da santan.. at 1st..i thought its gonna game over..bt it turned out to be tasty..seriously!!XD

da next dish was da fried mee... my fren sliced da chicken well..n of coz da onion..XD n another fren..ZX came to help us..Thank You!!=) da fried mee was kinda easy..i can say tat da fried mee was a sucess...(well..at least tat's wat i think..XD)

i din had a chance to try other's group dishes..bt it looks good to me..i din hope tat we can gt 1 till 3 rd place..bt at least we had fun 2day..^^ although at da beginning was a little failure( da starting fire part) ..bt overall..i think we made a good team..n most of all..we had fun!!=) after we complete our 2nd dish..i was so happy..n i almost hug him..XD

during da competition..there's alot of smokes..he put so much effort to make up da fire..i saw his eyes were already watery..n red.. n i knew tat his lungs gt some prob..so i din want him to inhaled the smoke too long..i was kinda worried actuali..i kip on calling him to stay away frm da fire..i think he'll thinks tat i'm annoying?..

after da competition, he n i went to return da big kuali...we ran up n down da skool just to find da bilik KOKO..after almost 15mins..we finally found it..XD although is kinda tiring..bt i actuali enjoy it very much..by walkin wit him.. on da way back to da pondok near da surau..he holded my hand once again..though it's kinda scary..bt i'm happy..=) i like da feeling when he hold my hand..when he look into my eyes..(though sumtimes is kinda scary..) i feltl so "loved"..just duno hw to describe... when he was walking wit me back to da pondok..i saw his face wit black stain..it was so funny..i wiped it away wit my tissue..den..we went to wash our hands..i splased him wit water when i washed my hand...n so did he..we played water..its rili fun being wit him...

he gt 101% 2day..duno hw much i gt leh?..i din asked him yet.. XD

i'm rili happy 2day..i just wish i could just seize tat moment when we were both 2gether......

10/07/2009

2009-07-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

2day was a sunny bt windy day.. he gt 85% 2day...n i gt 100% 2day..XD
wednesday nite, when i was doin my geo notes..teacher wants us to photocopy da map..since it was late nite d..i dun dare to ask my mum to go out n photostat..so i decided to draw my own map.. as i was drawing, he just sudenly popped into my head..i noe he wont photostat da map or draw da map..so..i decided to draw a map 4 him...although it tooks a little long time..bt i think its worthed..rite?..XD

2day during geo period..da teacher checked our notes..she saw my map n his were da same..so..da teacher asked..n i think she noes about us d... almost everybody noes nw...is tat a good news or a bad news?..

nowadays..i can rili feel it d..i WAS confused..bt nt anymore...i noe he rili does have feeling 4 me nw..sumtimes..when v both were very happy together, i 'll get more worried...i'm afraid tat i will lose him someday...he said he'll b going back to Kedah during holidays 4 2 months ...tats da only time i can go out wit him..bt he wont b wit me tat time..i hope he wont go la...2 months is too long 4 me...

i just wish da moment would last forever n never leave me..................

？？？。。。

2009-07-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

Dear 部落格，

昨天，我参加了我好朋友的生日会。只有7个人出席。虽然只是一个小小的party..她的妈妈还真的用心准备了好多丰富的食物呢！=）我临时买了一个pink colour 的手链给她。希望她会喜欢。虽然只是个小小的礼物，可是我还真的花了蛮多时间去选的哦。。

他，昨天也有主动sms我。他昨晚参加了他表哥的婚礼。他应该是穿得蛮帅吧！他说新娘很美。今天早上，我又sms他了。他说他在老人院。想不到他的家人还挺有爱心的呢。。他们去那里应该是当义工吧？。。不知道喱？。。之后，我sms他好几次，可是他都没有回我...刚才我online, 他也online，可是他只是随便和我聊几句，就没回我了。。到底发生了什么事？。。
我的心情现在好复杂哦。。不知该怎么形容。。哎，我想温习功课，可是就是读不进头脑。满脑子都是他。满脑子都在猜想到底发生了什么事情。我的另一位朋友都不鼓励我喜欢他。她说，我爱着他多过他爱我。。我曾告诉他这回事。他却说我没主见。我真的相信你对我说的每一句话。可是，一次又一次的谎言，令我模糊了。。我失望了。。这一次，我真的不知道该不该再相信你。我真的很想再给你一次机会，可是我害怕再受伤害。那一次，你在电话里哭着对我说，你不会再伤害我。是真的吗？可是你不知不觉又刺伤了我的伤口。有时候，我会觉得你不了解我，还是我自私了呢？我要的是一个真正爱我的人，一个不会伤害我的人，一个能让我靠的肩膀。。我真的迷失了方向。。不知道该往哪里走。。给我一点提示吧！

我现在还在等待着他传来的简讯。。他会不会传来呢？我真的好期待。。

“我知道这样不好也知道你的爱只能那么少我是由不停的要要到你想逃
泪湿了枕头撒干就好眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹一位在你身后是我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要。。
我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰只要你好好久久爱我一遍。。。
我不要你的承诺不要你的永远只要你真真切切爱我一遍。。。”

03/07/09...

2009-07-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

dear blog...

its a sunny day..
on fridays..i usually went home later than usual...i was actually waiting 4 him to take action...bt he doesnt rili took much action.. he acompanied me under the tree.. i was kinda happy..
he tried to hug me in cls 2day..bt i refused..i was scared actuali...XD it was difficult...v both were scared..v din had a chance to b alone..i' m missing him so much nw...i just hope he's wit me rite nw... i 'm madly in love wit him..just dont noe y...
my frenz asked me again..bout do v rili couple?..i cant asnwer one such simple question..bcoz i'm nt rili sure bout it too...so..i told him just nw..he said yes..of cox...XD

juz nw..i saw XX..i noe i dun like him anymore..bt just dunno y..i just feel scared..whenever i saw da candle he gave me 4 my bday..i'll think of him..bt da feeling just wasnt there anymore..is this a good thing or a bad thing?.. my frenz encouraged me to go 4 XX..bt i had waited 4 him bout 2 years..bt he doesnt even take any action at all..i'm rili tired of waiting..i decided to give up at last...

i' m waiting 4 his msg nw..though i called him nt to reply..bt i just wanna wait...XD
i hope he'll sms me later..=)
>>>you are not alone..i m her wit u..though u're far away..i'm here to stay..
you are not alone..i'm here wit u..though u're far apart..u'll always in my heart..<<<

well..tats all 4 2day..bye..=) nights!!

02/07/2009

2009-07-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

hi...this is my 1st day using this blog..=)

2day was a rainy day..i love da weather 2day..so windy n coosy..he was still da same..he din rili took any action 2day..mayb dis is better..i wont miss him too much..XD
actuali..i dun rili noe r v even counted as a couple?.. he asked a few times..bt my answer was just dunno...i'm kinda confused... he holded my hand tat day in cls..i'm rili shy n shocked..bt i'm still happy..XD

haih..exam is rili coming soon..n i stil din rili prepared...i'm scared..=( i started my sej 2day..bt oly 2 chapts...

he's burfday is stil 27days away..bt i'm planning his bday d..i was thinking to bake him a cake..bt i dun hav a chance..my mum is going to b at home..i hav no time to make him a cake..i wanna suprise him on tat day...

i love tat song so much...i rili cant believe tat i actuali get to sing wit him.. dis is my fav pic..oh gosh..i just love him so much...=)
well..tats all for 2day ..i think..bye..nights!!=)